Fallout Shelter

[Amorentia]

Sara POV

I heard , "Sara....."

Bringing his attention to me, I called, "Over here" from my spot in the oversized chair where I was curled up, my injured hand in my lap, my mind still in the woods on all that was said and done.

He walked over to me, the skelegrow and a pensive in hand as he said, , "Peni and Marcus have kept the kids for a tea party. Kelsey's bringing the Twins for a nap soon. How is it?"

Looking up at him, I said honestly, "It hurts....but I really just want to leave it that way.  It's better...the reminder.  I can do it the muggle way, I'll go to the Rez doctor and get one of those muggle casts" I gave him a small smile, "Maybe they'll have blue."

Sitting in front of me, he took my hand gently in his, "I don't want you to hurt, sweetheart."

Taking his chin in my good hand I kissed him lightly, "As long as it hurts, it'll be easier for me to not laugh it off.  I know, twisted logic, but Reg is a twisted bastard, so it works"

He gave me a smile, laughing as he said,  "Whatever works for you, darling. I support you." he leaned in, kissing me softly before holding the pensive up, "So you don't have to find the words."

"Good thinking...me and words" I shook my head with a smile, using my good hand to get my wand and removing the memory, watching his face as I provided it for him.

Blaise POV

Smiling at my Sara, I took the pensieve to watch the memory. It took a couple of deep breaths to try to become objective and mostly stay calm. It was Reg. I knew it had to be had for Sara to have felt the need to break her hand on his face. It was trying. I was trying. Lately I'd been putting forth a lot of effort to being more workable in order to get along with everyone. I wasn't hoping to maintain that for all of our sake. But then I watched the memory. His words. The things he did. Touching her, kissing her. Pushing her so hard. 

Leaning back against  the wall I tried to quelch the anger in my voice when I told her,  "He's over the line. I guess this has been coming."

Sara moved off the chair to lean into me. Rubbing her back I could see the strain on her face and wished I could take it away.

"I just don't know what to do with him anymore Blaise." Sara admitted. "I'm out of idea's on how to make him listen."

Putting my arms around I told her, "It's my turn. I've let him get away with so much because he is him. It's time for him to stop. He cannot keep this up." This wasn't just up to me. I asked her, "Are you okay with me talking to him?"

She'd nodded, "Maybe it'll do something...if the two of you don't kill eachother." Inside I melted as her lips met my jaw in the unique way she kisses me,

I gave a half smile, knowing I wasn't going to start a major fight here at Peni's. They've had enough going on without dealing with Reg and my explosive egos. "I'm going to try to be responsible about this and not.. me about it." Holding her chin, I let her lips caress mine for a moment before I left to find Reg for an overdo man-to-man chat.

Reg POV

I was an ass. I knew I'd hurt her...again.  The hand I was pretty sure she'd broken was probably going to be the least of her pain.  I sat on the steps of the porch, knowing I'd destroyed something in my stupidity that was already only hanging by a thread.  I could only hope time would give me the chance to fix it, but knowing her like I did, I knew no matter what band-aid she managed to put on it, there was no going back.  Her eyes and the squaring of her shoulders had told me more than her words or threats ever would. 

We'll work it out, I told myself again.  She would still be in my life.  That was all I really wanted, just to know she'd be there.  For whatever it looked like from the outside, I knew what it was within.  She was my friend, mother of my child, my girl, the only great love of my life.  That no one could understand how hard that was to let go of baffled me. 

Regardless of the way I had acted today, I wasn't trying to get her back.  I didn't love her that way anymore, no more than she loved me.  But she was my safety net.  She understood my need to self-destruct.  Putting my issues on her, I knew they'd never hit the place they had when I used Pansy as my net.  She had let me fall, revealing in it.  Sara kept me from hitting rock bottom, and while I sat here feeling like a bastard, I was still a bastard that hadn't done anything so bad it would hurt Little Bit. 

Knowing I'd reached and past my breaking point, I pushed aside the thoughts of Sara and what I had done to her, seeing it as collateral damage at this point.  Nothing I could do till she was ready for us to try and fix it.  Instead, I focused my thoughts on Little Bit and how she intrigued me.  How she seemed to need me, though I could tell she would never say the words.  That was fine by me, the people around here put to much stock in verbalizing anyway.  An observant mind could learn mind by their body language then thier words would ever say.

Hearing the door open behind me, I glanced back, seeing Little Bit standing hestitantly at the door.  Smiling, I patted the step beside me, asking "Wanna stare at tree's with me?"

A small smile lingered around the corners of her lips as she walked out onto the porch to join me, saying, "Sure, sounds like fun." Her eyes found mine as she sat down, tracing over my face before she turned to look out at the tree's.

Taking her soft hand in mine, I placed both of them on my leg, tugging her into my side, glad that while I may have destroyed Sara once again, I had kept myself from doing the same thing to the beauty beside me.  She looked to be one good heart break away from permentantly broken.  Bastard I may be, but I wasn't out to hurt anyone.  At least not intentionally.  OK, well, not her intentionally.  "So...did you leave any mall at the mall?"

Her nails raked over the my back in a soft comforting way, moving up to run through my hair as she answered, "Enough to go back again to clean them out. What fun would it be if there was nothing to come back for."

Laughing, knowing that keeping her mind busy, keeping her smiling was dulling down whatever was screaming inside her.  I wouldn't press, she knew I was here if and when she wanted to talk.  Until then, I'd just keep her laughing.  Biting off Sara's theory that finding a reason to smile through your tears was the best way to get by.  I wasn't sure if it would work, but she made it worth while to try. "If it makes you feel better, I could always apparate you to another mall" I said with a grin.

She laughed again, a lightness in her face that was missing as she woke each night, eyes wide with sorrow and fear,  "I'll have to remember that next time I need some shopping therapy." she took a deep breath, glancing down at her watch,  "I think it's about time, again. Let's go."

Kissing the top of her head, I told her, "Let's give it till morning so my manly bruise isn't quite so noticable" I added with a laugh, "Thank you magical creams!"

Playfully she teased, "I'm glad you said it. I was going to suggest some foundation to cover it before we were seen in public together." tenderly she fingered the bruise, "Let me guess, Sara?"

Groaning at the way every seemed to just know, I answered, "The woman leaves more bruises on me than should really be allowed," sighing, I knew I'd earned it, "And with the knock she gave J the other day, I think she might have actually hurt herself in the process"  It was just how things went with us.  I hurt her and in trying to protect herself, she just ends up hurting more.

Little Bit pursed her lips, but I could see the smile hinting around the edges as she said,  "She is scrappy."

"Makes J a good match right?  She can't kick his ass, even if he deserves it" I tested the waters of her past with Jalil, making sure before things went further she wasn't still hung up on players gone by. 

Her jaw dropped, her eyes widening, an excited smile taking over as she turned, saying, "Are they creeping around? That would be hilariuos!"

She was ideal, I thought as I chuckled again, my mind taking it's natural devious course, "It would be funny to make people think that right?  Blaise's head would explode!"

"We should so do that. That would be great fun." she encouraged my bad side and I knew then cool didn't even begin to cover what we were,  "Where to start?"

With a mischeivious grin, I said, "That is a good question...I think I'll have to be the mastermind and you'll have to do the dirty work for awhile, I think my Sara time is going to be restricted.  But I like the idea of having a partner in crime" I nudged her with a grin, "It's always better if you have someone to pass the blame onto"

She smiled, her eyes sparkling, "I love trouble. It's a great diversion."

Toying with her fingers, I pressed gently, "What are we diverting from, if you don't mind my asking?  I mean, I'll tell you for me, I am diverting from the fact that sometimes I'm just a dick.  And that Blaise pretty much always is"

Tori POV

"That he is." Smiling I put my fingers through his knowing it was time for me to take a brick from the wall I build around myself to let him see in. At least for a moment. He'd asked and accepted my silence, holding me without question. With how good he was to me, with out tying strings, it was the least I could do.

Looking out at the trees, I tried to think of the words. They came easy when they flowed from my head to Peni's in the Pack conciousness. My fingers started to sign the words, which came fluently to my hands like when I signed to my Daddy. Reg couldn't understand Sign Language. I would have to use my words to give voice to the inside which I'd prefered to keep silent.

Putting both arms around his neck so he couldn't see into my eyes as windows into my soul, I forced myself to name some of what had been troubling me: "Justin. The sounds of him being..... tortured play like a continious loop. I'm... it's too distructive for the Pack. But Peni and the Vets are trying to help. It just won't stop."

It was all I could say as he pulled me between his legs wrapping his arms over around my shoulders to and put his chin on my head. "I figured with the Justin stuff...I sleep with you, ya know?"

My eyes closed. It was Justin. Justin and more. So much more I didn't know how to deal with. On top of that, I didn't want to deal with it. I wanted it to go away.

Kissing the top of my head he told me, "When I was a Death Eater, I had to watch some of my friends fall during the first battle.  I won't lie, I was fighting for the wrong side and we deserved what we got, but the sounds and the looks on their faces...that stuff takes time to move past."

Nodding, I was thankful for the glimps of him in return for one into me. Automatically my hands moved with I spoke, "Now I have the images to put with the sounds. I don't know..." Justin's warm embrace with it's unconditional love. His tortured screams from being killed. I looked up making myself continue, "See? When we're... doing our thing." A smiled played across my face, "Or everyone is laughing. Or being with my family. It lessons. The rest of the time....." Returning to the safety of the back of my eyelids, I laid against his chest.

"We'll just have to do our thing more often then, huh?" Reg said. That drew a smile from me inside and out.

My teeth rolled over my bottom lip for a second relishing in the segway from the uncomfortable opened honesty. It was enough talking for one day. With a soft look I gave him a sexy smile letting my finger rest in the dimple on his chin saying, "

Our lips met in a soft kiss as he smiled,  "Shopping and other therapeutic things it is."
Then his face changed looking over my shoulder. I turned seeing Blaise walking toward us. He finished, "As long as I can look pretty for you."

With a hand on his face, my thumb brushed over his lips before following it with a kiss telling him, "Some things you don't have to be pretty for." Standing up, I let my hand slowly slide off his face as I left him to handle his business.

Sara Black written by shtteredprncess. Reg Black written by shtteredprncess. Blaise Zabini written by Amorentia. Tori "Little Bit" Young written by Amorentia.