Ok ladies, bare with me, this is my first journal entry. so it might be choppy and all over the place.
My beautiful daughter was born in 2003, and I was with her dad for four years, He left us when she was 8 months old, because i got too fat and we faught all the time. He couldnt handle the post partum depression. Anyways I dated various people for the next few years, but usually not unless she was with a sitter, i didnt want to confuse her. I Always thought that was the right thing for me. When she was 4 I got serious with this man, who after 9 months I married. ( ya i know not the smartest thing to do) we moved from camrose, To where i currently live. We were married for five months, and then two weeks after I miscarried our baby, he leaves me for SIX, yes i said six, other women. So i have become a bit jaded. I now live with My current SO, and things are Very rocky to say the least. And my DD is now 6. So as it stands right now Im lost, lonely and Wanting so badly to feel like I belong in my own life. There is so much going on in my head. And I Keep trying to remind myself of the blessings i do have instead of focusing on what i dont have! Some days it just doesnt work.