Time to let go of tiny pieces of my dead child

[ast2192735]

It's been 4 years since my premature daugher was born coming into this world three months early at 2lbs 5oz  and blessing our lives for 2mths 19 days before lossing the battle which my husband thought was inevitable I had mothers hope, you know the kind where you want to belive the doctors taking care of your child in the NICU and when they go from 20% survival to 100% despite cysts in thier brains I guess the best got  of me, then on the morning she was dying next to us and despite CPR attepts and everything under the sun she still died at 5lbs2oz, we've kept all her premmie clothes that is until last week and I've organized it alll except for the special stuff that no one not evern her sister will touch and I was going to have my MIL just give them away in mexico and then I read about the NICU babies in Scripps Hospital meeting Santa Clause where Amanda was born and the memories floded back and for a while my heart ached and I have emailed them and if they let me i will donate her clothes to the babies there at the NICU and maybe the babies and the poor mothers there can have a better memory to have instead of just the white clothes and since we are cleaning up Sophia's room i've got to let go of tiny pieces  of her but it hurts like hell giving away pieces and memories of her I don't know when this pain will end i know she is in a better place but it still hurts in me.

[littleredpony]

Dec. 17, 2009 at 9:02 AM

It hurt so bad to let go of Gabiel's things, I understand. I am sure that as painful as your memories are they are a priceless treasure. I know mine are and I only had 5 days worth of memories.

[JoyeAustin]

Dec. 17, 2009 at 9:09 AM

Love to you, my dear.  *hugs*

[MSugarKane]

Dec. 17, 2009 at 10:00 AM

A parent should never have to bury a child.  God bless you for sending those preemie clothes to the NICU.  The NICU I am positive needs them and will use them on a daily basis for other preemies.  

May your baby's soul rest in peace. 

 

[ast2192735]

Dec. 17, 2009 at 3:34 PM

Thank you hopefully I can give it to them before xmas or new years

(Original Poster)

[morningdove1769]

Dec. 17, 2009 at 10:31 PM

I am so sorry for your loss.

[Mommytwo6angels]

Dec. 18, 2009 at 6:52 PM

I am so sorry for ur loss. I may not know what it is to lose a child but I do know what it is to have them in the NICU. My twins were born 3 months early also weighing 1lb 14oz and 2lb 3oz. It breaks your heart to see ur child like that and I can relate to you in that aspect. You are doing a wonderful thing donating ur babys clothes. We did that also to give a child a chance to look like a baby instead of just a patient. Bless your heart momma you are a wonderful person...... Once again I am sorry that you lost your baby : (

[alexloves3]

Dec. 20, 2009 at 4:04 AM

so so sorry, i just couldnt imagine - god bless and take care and you do have 3 lovely angels!!!!!!!!!!

[ast2192735]

Dec. 20, 2009 at 11:11 AM

THANKS EV1

(Original Poster)