Happy Birthday to my Angel

[littleredpony]

 I am not going to write about how much I miss you. I am not going to once again talk about how much I love you. I am not going to sit here in my jammies and cry away the day like I want to.

I heard someone once say "if you love me enough to die for me will not also live for me?". That single comment made a big impact on me. I love you and miss you and would do anything to have you back in my arms. That is not going to happen so I will also tell you thank you. Thank you for being in my life, your body was here for such a short time but I still feel you. You sent me your little brother, who was just the best baby and now a sweet and loving little boy. You have by your side your first sister, sharing the same heart defect, take care of her. I never even got to met her but I love her too. Hug each other for me. And thank you for your latest gift, your baby sister is such a treasure and joy.

Thank you for teaching me what it really means to love, to love selflessly. My heart is stronger now, like a sword cooled in tears. I did not know I could be so strong. Sometimes I just have to cry my, selfishness sreams to have you back, my arms feel like they will break if I can't hold you again. Then I remember YOU. You are now whole, no broken heart, no pain. You are where you were born to be.

I love you baby.

For Gabriel James born Dec 17th 1999 with Hypo-plastic Left Heart Syndrome. Returned to heaven 5 days later as his body lay sheltered in his mommy's and daddy's arms.

[ast2192735]

Dec. 17, 2009 at 9:22 AM

so sorry for your loss they are precious when they are here and they always are near us  that was sweet