Exciting times

[CJM_SHM]

I can not seem to express how excited I am for this holiday season. It brings me to tears every single time I think about it, forget telling people how I feel.

This year, our son is 5 and our daughter is 3. This is the first year that either of them really understand what is happening and are excited about it. Our son is high functioning autistic and he has never really thought about Santa bringing presents, he never asked for anything specific as a gift, he never even opened his own presents! In the past he has always been overwhelmed and will open a couple gifts and then it's up to me to open the rest for him. It was always kind of depressing because I am always so excited for them and then he doesn't seemed phased by it at all. Our daughter is too young....she gets the whole thing and is excited this year, but last year she didn't understand. She just knew she had lots of presents and she actually opened every single one on her own....which actually upset me even more. Here my 2 year old is getting the whole concept of opening presents, but my 4 year old isn't. I mean, I am very thankful and feel very blessed to have her be a typically developing child, but watching your younger child surpass your older child can be difficult.

Anyway, this year, Cameran is totally into it! We had a super busy year and did a whole detox with him. We just found out that he is almost to a point where we can say is fully recovered from his autism! This year he wanted to go see Santa and he asked Santa for one thing......a book! He hasn't changed his mind on this book once....he knows what he wants :) He asks me every morning if it is Christmas yet and I just can not wait until Christmas morning to see how he reacts. Is going to run downstairs to confirm Santa came the way I use to do as a child? Is he going to open all his gifts? Is he actually going to play with his gifts? How excited is he going to be when he opens up that darn book from Santa?

I honestly feel like a kid again, so excited for my child to experince Christmas the way children are suppose to feel about Christmas. It is suppose to be so magical for them and this is our year!

So Happy Holidays to everyone and I hope that each of you can just feel a small glimpse of what I feel this holiday season!!!!!!!!!!

[Lucy725]

Dec. 22, 2009 at 7:33 PM

You sure made me cry, I am so happy for you and can't wait till I can say my son is fully recovered also. I love him so much words can not explain. I feel so bad that he has to go through this but I have faith, so much faith that he will recover, it's just a matter of when. I know I have to be patient but as you know it's difficult, so difficult. Peanut has been on his best behaivor today, I feel that is so comfortable and peaceful, I don't hink he is in any discomfort today which makes me super happy. I am so happy when his happy! Happy holidays to you and your little ones, I hope they both enjoy opening presentS!

Much Love to you and yourS!