As i sit here and look back at what the year 2009 had for me, I am so ready for this year to be over, also i am a bit scared as well, what will 2010 hold for me? more heartbreak? or none at all? I have been thinking about everything i had or lost in the last year. and i realize, i have been focusing on all the things i dont have or didnt have. All the while missing what i did have, My beautiful little girl, who is the sunshine of my entire life. And i am trying to think of a new years resolution, I havent come up with much just yet, but I want to be more fun, and give kiona something to tell her children when she gets older, that my mom was fun and cool but also fair. Anyways i was just thinking.