Wow. I really can't believe that it is already 2010. It seems like last week that it was 1999 and I was graduating from High school. It seems like a few days ago it was 2003 and I was graduating from college. That yesterday I got married and had Micah.

30 is just around the corner. I own my home, am a housewife, SAHM (whatever you like to call it). I have a 1 year old, have been married for 4 years and am doing all of the things I always thought that I would. But it seems like there might be something missing. What is it? IDK.

I always wanted to have 2 kids, but I only have one. I am not 100% positive that I want a second one, but I'm thinking maybe.

I want to go back to school, but not in what I went before. I want to go to school to be a pastry chef. Who knew that I would like to cook?? Who could have known that? When I was a kid my mom made me cook every day, of every week, for my sisters. I hated it. Now I realize that it wasn't the cooking I hated it was the repetitive meals, I wasn't allowed to experiment. I wasn't allowed to make anything but what we always had (like Monday was Hamburger Helper, Tues was burritos, Weds was Hamburger Helper, Thurs was Tacos, Fri was pizza night when we could afford it, when we couldn't it was Tuna noodles and gravy, on Sat it was something in the crockpot usually Beef stew, and Sunday was leftovers. How original is that?? ick! )

I want to lose 10-15 lbs but 5 lbs would be awesome. I want to look better, dress nicer, have some pride in how I look (like I used to). Not for my hubby, but for me. So I will be more confident in myself like I used to be.

I would like to be a kinder person. To be able to stop taking the Sertaline (PPD) and to be a better wife. I would like to really decorate for Valentines, Halloween (which is also my wedding anniversary) and Thanksgiving and Christmas this year. I would like to join a Mommy and me group and go to it with my darling DS (Micah).

hmmm. IDK. I know that I want to do something, something important- but what could that be?

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Jan. 16, 2010 at 5:01 AM

Please don't lose yourself in being only a Mommy and wife. Go back to school and become that Chef! DO IT WHILE YOU'RE YOUNG! Begin setting short/long term goals for yourself so that you maintain focus and don't let time steal away. Having balance in your life requires so much time to self, so much time to society, so much time to family/friends and so much time practicing your faith. You can do it! I wish someone had told me when I was younger.

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