Ryan is finally here... my birth story

[sahmommy2]

Well to start things off, i didn't get the birth i had originally set out for or planned but the important thing is ryan is here and we are both healthy and doing well.

    Thursday december.10th at  12:30 am i woke up feeling very crampy and irritible and just could not sleep. I tried all sorts of positions to try and get comfortable and get more sleep and it just wasn't happening.My husband says to me "honey are you having contractions and are you in labor?". So we start timing them. They were 4-5 minutes apart and stayed like this for close to 2 hours.So we get my mil up to stay with our two other boys and drive to my midwives home/office.After about 6 hours of laboring ther with no change in dilation and whatnot i wanted to go home and they said i was in early labor but yes i could go home and to keep them updated.

I went home in horrible weather conditions to the point where you could hardly see in front of you to drive but we made it home ssafely. the next couple of hours, i lay in bed in excruciating pain balling my eyes out and wishing it was all over. finally my husband called my midwife to let her know what was going on and she said for him to get me to eat and drink and than bring me into her office. so i tried eating but every time i got a contraction, it would rack my whole body and i was soo nauseous i hardly ate anything and we decided to head into my midwifes.

i got to her house about  2 pm on thursday and labored there for several hours. by midnight i was feeling like i wanted to give upo and couldnt do it no more. my midwife asked if i wanted to be checked and i said no. i took hot showers in a standing shower with my husband and sat on a birthing seat and cried the whole time for all the pain i was in.by 6 am of that day,and all the pain i was in,and all the walking all over my midwifes house i had done i felt i was ready for her to check me.she checked me and i was shocked and yet soo very proud cus i had gotten to 8 cm all on my own with no drugs whatsoever with my husbands support and encouragement as well as my midwifes and some other midwifes that were theres support.

by 10 am she was a little shocked that i still had a bulging bag of waters when we had tried everything to get them to rupture and nothing was happening. she wont rupture them at her office so we finally decided after all the pain i was in,my contractions staying pretty consistant with very little breaks in between and hardly any rest for almost 2 days, that it was time to go to the hospital. When we got there i was giving the option of her breaking my waters and continuing the labor naturally. i finally wussed out and asked for some kind of pain relief and than my water was broken.i was given a walking epidural and was finally able to get a few good hours of sleep with out pain. btw... i had gotten to 9 cm by this time... yay

Around 6 :30-7 pm after hours at the hospital and no change in getting the last little bit of cervix out of the way and with the main dr for the hospital getting concerned i was starting to get really worried and scared.my last check my midwife did, she could feel my babys head and hair as well and i got soo excited but i was starting to swell and i got really really scared by this bit of news. finally at a little after 7 pm and much pain,hard work and determination, i was told that the babys heart rate was being sporadic with each conctraction and since my contractions had kinda fizzed out and spaced out for the last hour, that they felt another  csection was the best option. within a half hour i was in the operating room balling my eyes out for how hard i had worked and it all coming to this.

My husband and midwife were right by my side and my husband actually cried with me when we were told i was getting another csection. my husband doesnt ever really show emotion and it still makes me teary eyed knowing i had soo much love and support from him and he was as devastated as i was.finally at 7:46 on friday december.11,2009 little ryan andrew serwinowski came into this world. he was such a beautiful sight and i was soo happy to have him here finally. my poor baby unfort. had over 150 ccs of fluid sucked out of his lungs but than me and him got to go to recovery and i got to get aquainted with my new son.

I stayed in the hospital until monday morning and than went home.i tried breastfeeding but because of everything including the csection,and his congestion he had our whole hospital stay from all the fluid in his lungs, he didnt want to latch on hardly at all. i pumped for the first few days and than UHOH!!!! i got post partum depression.i cried everyday and had no reason to know why i was crying and would get so sad and depressed. i was hardly eating, i wanted to sleep all the time,i didnt want to hold my new baby let alone spend any time with my two older boys. it was a really rough time.

My devoted and loyal husband that he is called my midwife right away. she told me to take my prenatals and st johns wort and to eat better and get some exercise as well as stay busy and positive. i didnt think it would work but i tried it anywyas. the first few days was a real struggle to not get sad n depressed or cry and to force myself to eat. i just wanted to give up but than i thought of my husband and my two older boys as well as the baby and new i had to fight this for not only them but for myself as well. i can proudly say i havent cried in a little over two weeks and that i am eating better and feeling better too.i know i still have a ways to go(i am soo scared unexpectedly it might rear its ugly head again) but i know i can beat it if it does.

[inthefuture]

Jan. 7, 2010 at 7:42 PM

[Xakana]

Feb. 20, 2010 at 2:21 AM

Congratulations on your little boy. I'm sorry that you didn't get the VBAC you wanted and tried so hard for. All that labor probably did him a world of good, though.