Life is like a roller coaster.  Some lives more than others, maybe, but we've all got our ups and downs.  Our attitudes profoundly affect how we react to the various ups and downs that life throws at us.

Roller coasters. Pretty extreme ups and downs. Pretty terrifying, in their own way.  And there are some folks who can't go near them. But look at the lines! The lines for the roller coasters are always packed with people who, on some level, understand that ups and downs can be exciting and thrilling.  They may not think about it consciously.  They may not even practice the same philosophy when confronted by life's other ups and downs.  But at least for this moment in time, the lengthy anticipation in line, the rush of the ride, and the return to solid ground, they know that ups and downs are what make the ride worth riding.

I have a really bad case of PTSD that complicates a lot of aspects of my daily life. I have also been very successful over the past 9 years in pursuing effective treatment and getting a better handle on it.  Ups and downs.

I have a teenage daughter.  I am divorced from her father and remarried. Oh, boy, are there issues!  Ups and downs.

I have a little girl who is 17 months old.  She's like the energizer bunny.  If she's awake, she's in motion, always going somewhere, racing up the steps, chasing the cats, dancing in wild circles, putting ducks in unattended boots, and always looking for the opportunity to put ducks in the toilet.  So far, we've caught her every time.  Right now, the teething is the worst part. Ups and downs.

We got downsized at the end of July (2009). We realized we could make it on what income we had without a job, IF we made some very major and serious changes to our lifestyle.  We unanimously decided that it was worth the sacrifice.  We'd all rather have more daddy and less money than less daddy and more money.  But it's hard.  We're losing the house and the truck.  We know where we're supposed to be going this summer, but not if we'll stay and make it our home.  Then on top of all this, I turn up pregnant again, due in August, a good couple of months AFTER when the move was supposed to go down.  So now what?  Move in my third trimester? Switch providers and birth locations and everything?  Pregnant in the summer is bad enough, just did that two years ago.  Pregnant in the summer while moving to a new state and starting a whole new kind of life...well, I think it's going to be real hard.  Ups and downs.

I am thrilled with this pregnancy. I will still be 39 when this one is born. I am so excited to meet this new little one. I am literally embracing everything about it, looking forward to breastfeeding and cosleeping again, attachment parenting, getting to know this marvelous new person and watching him or her grow and learn, with both mama and daddy there for the whole thing.  There will be many changes. There will be lots of unpleasantness of a wide variety of sorts, some of which are still unimagined;)  I can't wait!  Ups and downs.

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Jan. 14, 2010 at 6:11 PM

I'm glad I get to hear more about your life. Wow you are one strong women you have been through so much.

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Jan. 18, 2010 at 10:14 AM

You're so right--life is all about ups & downs.  You can't reach the peaks without going through the valleys.  Keep going Maggie--you're stronger than you think!

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Jan. 23, 2010 at 12:39 AM

Got it now! :-) Want more! LOL!

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