What is on my heart today

[Cinnamon-mom]

I have a lot on my mind. I have been finding it easy to go about my duties thinking everything is okay, and I don't even notice I feel anxious until I sit down and have trouble catching my breath!!! I thought at first it was too much caffeine, LOL. But to be honest I am finding myself anxious about all the worries that I have allowed into my mind, while I go about my day.

Right now I am doing a 40 day fast online for the new year (just a partial fast, no big deal), but I am seeking the Lord 3 times a day as I follow the devotions emailed to me each morning. Last night before bed I was reading through the devotions and I thought alot about the verse that encompassed the day:

"Whether you turn to the right or to the left,

your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying,

'This is the way; walk in it." 

    ( Isaiah 30:21)

The Lord gave me this verse about a month or two ago too, when I was studying the voice of the Lord. Then I realized that I have been allowing myself to fear certain things. And it dawned on me that those fears are not from God. "Perfect love casts out all fear." So of course I began to pray about the things consuming my thoughts.

Then I turned to Psalm 63 to begin my evening study. It addressed the EXACT things that I had been upset about last night!! The Lord's guidance was so obvious that I couldn't help but be comforted in the knowledge of the fact that He is absolutely in control of every detail of my life. I have a calling to fulfill. His hand has led me supernaturally up until now, and He will continue to lead me in the future.

This is blind faith. Blind faith is NOT believing in some idea without proof. Blind faith is surrendering your trust to someone you KNOW loves you and has the best plan for your life. I can walk through life blindfolded, holding onto His arm and be safer than if I were to go it alone with eyes wide open. I don't need to worry about tomorrow. He told me not to. He told me to have faith in HIM, to know that He will NEVER leave me nor forsake me. He told me that He is my Good Shepherd. He leads me. He calls me by name so that I can follow Him.

I need to take my eyes off the things that freak me out and be comforted by His rod and staff. He has laid down His life for me. I am that special. He won't take His eyes of me for a second. He won't forget about me. He is the God who sees me. My name is written on the palm of His hand. As I sat there, putting my eyes back on Him. I realized that the heaviness was lifted from my heart. It was replaced with praise.

This is what my devotion said about Psalm 63:

EVENING MEDITATION - "...and on His law he meditates day and night" (Ps. 1:2)  

Scripture Reading: Psalm 63

 

This Psalm of David was written when he was seeking refuge in the strongholds of the Judean wilderness.  While King Saul was searching for David, David was seeking God's help.  David's life hung in the balance, but instead of being fearful of his circumstances he clung to the One Who truly held his life in His hands.  This Psalm expresses the joy and peace David found in fellowship with God as he waited for the Lord's deliverance.  The Lord's desire for His children, before we walk out the door, run to that appointment, or cast out our nets, is that we first seek His face to know the way we should go and how to walk in it (reference Isaiah 30:21).  "Pray to the Lord to tell us where we should go and what we should do" (Jeremiah 42:3).  Meditate on this Psalm this evening and write out your own prayer asking God to show you the plans He has for you.

 

Heavenly Father,

 "God, You are my God;

Early will I seek You;

My soul thirsts for You;

My flesh longs for You

In a dry and weary land

Where there is no water.

So I have looked for You in the sanctuary,

To see Your power and Your glory." (NKJV)

In Jesus' Name. Amen.  

 

"I ought to pray before seeing anyone...

Christ arose before day and went into a solitary place.

David says: 'Early will I seek thee'...

I feel it is far better to begin with God - to see His face first,

to get my soul near Him before it is near another."

- Robert Murray M'Cheyne

 

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