"It's kind of like you are pregnant!"

[MrsCareBear]

Those were the words my mother said as we gabbed over our excitement of my becoming an adoptive mom. :)

I am so excited, I can barely stand it. We are still very early in the process. We have turned in our applications, fingerprints, background checks, and other assorted paperwork. Right now we are just waiting on our home study to actually start. Ugh, it's torture, I tell you! 

Speaking of the home study, even though my husband and I both know that there is nothing that would keep us from being approved as adoptive parents, I still have that feeling of anxiety. What if they find some detail wrong with us that we never thought of? What if they don't like our house? What if, what if, what if! It drives me crazy at times. I know in my heart (and head) that we are good candidates for adoption. We are young (not TOO young), we have no other children, my husband has a good and steady job (Army! Hooah!), we have a steady flow of income, we have supportive families, we have a big enough house...the list goes on! I don't mean to sound conceited or like I am bragging. I just mean to say that we have a healthy environment for children...so why am I still so NERVOUS? 

We are open to (and hoping for) a sibling group between the ages 1-5 years old. We are so excited! Our social worker says that that should makes things go a lot faster for us, which we don't mind one bit! When I tell people we are open to sibling groups, they kind of look at us cross-eyed, as if to say "What are you THINKING?!" Well, I am thinking we want a family, and that there are so many sibling groups that are not adopted because most people only want one child, not two or three or even four. :) Well, we do! :) I get a little nervous as to how crazy things will be when we get all of those kiddos (even just two will be a challenge), but we know in our hearts that everything will be worth it, and that all of the love we will share in our family will totally outweigh the crazy times. <3

We have already bought two twin beds that could be turned into bunk beds. I am happy of that! We bought them off of craigslist and they are great. I would also like to get a crib just in case we get a baby (not holding my breath on that one though). If we don't get a baby, there is always that craigslist! =D I want to stock up on extra bedding, toys, books, decor, etc all that would be appropriate for our age bracket. Hello, Goodwill! We aren't buying ANYthing new until we know exactly what age and gender we are getting. My mom doesn't want to buy too much stuff until she knows what we are getting, but me on the other hand, try and stop me! From what I have learned, you can never have enough bedsheets, clothes, blankets, towels, and other misc. linens for children in your house. I already bought one twin bed set for $3 at Goodwill. It is in the pattern of a blue sky with clouds. :) Now tell me what kid has never dreamed of sleeping in the clouds??? =P

It is hard, though, to find gender neutral bedding and clothes these days, unless its for a newborn baby. Everything is themed! Whether it be High School Musical, Dora the Explorer, Tinkerbell, Hot Wheels, Disney's Cars, or Spider-Man...EVERYthing has a theme. Ack! Can't I just get some cute bedding with animals or something on it? The hunt is on! 

Well, I had better get off of here and get back to cleaning the house. Not only am I playing hostess for the first time at our new house, but I also have to get the kids' room ready for when my parents come to visit! Sheesh! An Army wife's work is never done, it seems. =P

Later, fellow moms!

[Kellyjude1]

Jan. 21, 2010 at 12:29 PM

How exciting!!!  I am blessed by adoption.  our adoption was a private adoption.  I remember the waiting all too well...lol.  I was the same way with the worrying..I think it is all only natural.  Another thing that helped me with the waiting was keeping a journal.  Please keep us all posted.