What a Difference a Day (or Two) Makes!

[caseylauren]

  I had my Aha moment yesterday, ‘tho it was a lower case ‘aha’….it was so subtle… but I’ll take it! My attitude has definitely shifted and I can see a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel! I guess it’s good that I’m slightly ADD with bi-polar tendencies… like they say about the weather in Colorado… if you don’t like it… just wait 15 minutes! Same with my emotional state….. I’m never down for very long…

So what happened? I took a bite of a pickle, for one thing! That small act of empowerment, stepping outside my comfort zone was a big moment for me… and I happened to be on the phone with my two pickle perpetrating sisters at the time… they were actually the ones encouraging me to just get it over with… I wish I had been on a video call so they could witness for themselves the moment that our pickle karma had been absolved! And I have to add that it wasn’t nearly as horrible as I thought it would be… I actually chewed and swallowed… which is more than I thought I could tolerate… so I surprised myself…..I’ve done it, and I don’t have to ever do it again!!

It was beautiful weather yesterday and I wanted to get out in the sunshine and take advantage of it…. as I’m still working towards that 15 lb weight loss…. There’s a walking trail that I drive by everyday, and I’ve never explored it… so today would be the day!….. it’s only 4 miles from my house, yet when I started off down the trail, quickly realized that I had no idea that this area even existed! I felt like I had discovered hidden treasure! It was a beautiful, well maintained trail, with a few hills every now and then to really get the heart pumping… the most amazing thing about it was the view of the bay from every part of the trail and the beautiful waterfront homes that I had never seen before! … and I’ve lived in this area for over 20 years! How fun to still be able to discover new things!

I took a moment, as I came upon a bench that had been positioned for maximum viewing pleasure… and just sat for a few moments…. and that’s when it hit me…and it really opened my eyes…...I live in one of the most beautiful places in the country… people save up all year long to come here from all over the world to vacation… and this is where I have the pleasure of waking up every morning! So what if my bank account is not as full as I’d like it to be…. So what if I’m late making payment my bills… if I’m allowing those external pressures to take away from my enjoyment of each and every day, then I’ve given my power away…. I am no longer the captain of my ship…. That’s when the light went on… and I realized the power of being in the moment… it’s what everyone is talking about these days… ‘be in the moment’… each and every moment, breath by breath, you have the choice to be aware, and to be grateful for that moment, when all is perfect… just as it is…. And then next time I start to hyperventilate because I don’t know where my next paycheck is coming from, I can take a deep breath, and remember sitting on that bench… and the moment when I realized it’s my choice how I feel each and every day and that all really is perfect!!

Casey