Screw New Years. Birthdays are the real reason...

[Momma_Halo]

To think about your life. I am turning 28 years old in two weeks and it has left me really thinking about the year that has past. And that was a jam filled year. 

I found out I had PCOS and that the older I get the harder it will be to get pregnant. And that I really don't want to get pregnant again. It took a long hard look inside myself and talking with my family to realize that my baby making days are done.

It has nothing to do with the whole 30 blah blah blah. It has everything to do with I really don't want to keep breaking my heart with every negative. Or the fact that I am getting to an age where my son is really needing me now for school, he is getting into sports, and he is venturing out into this bright new world and he needs support.

My allergies developed during the last half of this year and I am adjusting to a new diet more than I was during the beginning of the year. I am not going to lie about it so yes I do kick and scream and throw tantrums about my diet because sometimes I do want that really yummy cherry pie or that all beef hot dog. But I am slowly craving them less and less. I made a lovely barley vegan soup though. Oh my god it was delicious. 

I also learned that maybe being a Medical assistant isn't for me. I completely respect those that do it and do it well. But working front desk and back is just bad for me and my anxiety attacks. Plus add on the whole allergies to perfume, cig smoke, pot smoke, and needing to keep a strict no meat and no dairy diet. I can't work out of my house at all. Fortunately I figured that out. I found an online program that teaches medical transcription and I even have a job lined up for it. So I can have the best of both worlds. And I don't have to listen to people telling me I am broken or "deal with my bad habits". Plus I can have a steady income and take care of my house and not have to deal with getting ready the day before unless I am getting the crock pot ready.

So this year I am making a list of things I want to fix when I am 28. Along with my religious view out look. I have had too many people whispering in my ear telling me what is right and what is best for me even though I don't feel that way. So back to the UU I go. 

I am focusing on my career and my home as well. Strange as some might see that but I am completely happy spending 8 hours a day working in front of a computer while doing laundry and cleaning the kitchen on my breaks. That sounds like my dream job. So I actually cannot wait.

And this year I am going to focus on my diet more seriously. Quit cheating on my diet and start working out more. 

I probably have more to do but those are the important ones that stick out in my mind. So here is to being 28! Hope it goes better than 27.

[Momma_Halo]

Feb. 3, 2010 at 2:35 PM

Oh and a makeover was needed as well. Having fun with it. :)

(Original Poster)