The winds of change

[Fordmomma]

So the company I work for merged with a much larger company like seriously the day after I got back from maternity leave. When that happened right away about 10 people were laid off. We were all told of the changes that were gonna happen in the next year or so. One being that we are moving locations. Now this is where I have a problem. I already drive over 45 minutes in perfect traffic conditions add a little snow or rain and sometimes I get stuck in the car for over 2 hours. Not only is this place 20 minutes farther it is known for horrible traffic. So I could be spending 1 to 2 hours one way to get to and from work. Yeah the price it will cost me in gas sucks but it is nothing compared to the time I will lose spending with my kids. I already only get to see them for 30 minutes in the morn and only 3 1/2 hrs at night. My DH has to change his work hours to help with pick up or drop off of the kids to daycare. I'm so lost over this I know I have my weekends with them, but I'm already so rushed weekday evenings doing dinner housework homework and finding some time to play with my kids. I know this move it only temp. because they are looking for a different building to fit all operations, but that location is not pinned down it could be closer it could be farther IDK??? I know there will be more lay-offs and I have been told by both bosses my job is safe and I'm on the right of the ledger so that does give me some peace to know at least I have a job. But at what cost??? I know we need health care and that is the reason I work. I work hard and I make decent money for someone with a HS dipolma. Someone with a BS in business would kill for my job. I know I could not find this type of job with the pay and perks anytime soon in this job market. I just feel stuck in a corner I love my job still I love my family more, but I don't want my family to suffer with no health care. I could get a part-time at night job for 3 days a week and make more $ without having to pay daycare, but it would be at a nursing home or hotel doing something that is not in my career path. And we still would have no healthcare. My DH says he supports whatever I decide. I'm pretty sure I will go to the new place I may hate it, but I'm hoping its one of those things that turns out to be really great for me and my family. We will not move either that is out of the question. My kids are only going to one school for life. I hated moving and switching schools. So when we settled down we decided that where were at was home forever. I want my family but I also want my career so my family can have a better life and I would be be a darn fool to turn it down right????

 

Oh and before anyone wants to bash me I HAVE TO WORK I DIDN'T MARRY FOR MONEY. I don't work for extras I work to pay bills we live very frugle (most of the time) so please just don't comment if your only gonna be nasty.