Religion is a fickle thing

[Momma_Halo]

Last July I started going back to church with my mother. It was the only time the woman would spend time with me. We kept going to this tiny church in Meridian and the atmosphere was great. Very open, very loving, caring, generous, and they treated you like a valued member regardless of how much you made. I started to volunteer there and then I was baptized last August. 

But the more I went the more I started noticing I just loved the community it offered. I started arguing with my Bible and some of the sermons I just didn't agree with at all. Jesus is an awesome person and who am I to argue that he wasn't the son of God? But I slowly realized that Christianity wasn't my thing at all. I seriously didn't believe in Satan and I personally thought that it wasn't Satan that made people do things it is their lack of good judgement. 

I started itching for my spell books again which I didn't have the heart to give away. But I didn't feel like I was apart of what I use to be in. But it did inspire me to talk to one of my friends who was deeply into her Pagan religion. The reason I failed in Paganism was due to the lack of direction and structure. I didn't know what I was doing and no one to guide me. There are over hundreds of books on every topic but I just couldn't decide on what path I wanted to go on. 

I am slowly starting to realize what tradition interests me but no idea on what books nor what sites to research it. 

I am finding myself on the same path again trying to find my religion and I am really hoping I can find it. The more I take a inner look inside myself the more I see I am moving where I need to be. And the more I take these steps the more peaceful I am.

[CheshireHope]

Feb. 23, 2010 at 4:44 PM

i'm doing some of the same searching here too. trying to really find the  right Pegan path.  i know I can never be a Christian. i have too many issues with passages in the Bible.

[Momma_Halo]

Feb. 23, 2010 at 4:50 PM

Yeah, I am moving more towards a Celtic reconstruction faith. I wish I could find more on how the old faith was practiced but many of the books go off of speculation. 

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[Momma_Halo]

Feb. 23, 2010 at 4:51 PM

Now I want to be clear I said Celtic faith not Druid. The Druids were more the Monks of the Celtic faith who took their studies of magic, healing, and faith very serious.

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[flowrchild77]

Feb. 23, 2010 at 6:02 PM

Why do you have to have a religion?  I have zero.  I don't believe in any of it.  I think that when we die we die.  The end.  I feel that religion is based on death, and we won't know what happens when we die anyway, so what's the use in worrying about it?  My father was a Baptist minister until I moved away from home.  I never agreed with any of it other than be a good person.  That's my basis in life is be a good person and that's all anyone can do.  I say don't stress over religion.  It's just not worth it because in the end you are who you are, and we must all strive to be a better person and learn from the bad things in life.

[Momma_Halo]

Feb. 23, 2010 at 6:07 PM

Because some of us have faith in more than that and some of us have more to believe in than "The End" when we die. I believe in Gods, Goddesses, and all the trimmings. 

That is my choice and I respect your choice as well.

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[evwsquared]

Feb. 24, 2010 at 5:03 PM

If you want to have a community to support you as you go on this journey, see if you can find a Unitarian Universalist church in your area. I know a pagan who is very active in her UU church and simply adores it. It will give you the freedom and support to find your religious path while also providing a community setting.

[Momma_Halo]

Feb. 24, 2010 at 6:45 PM

The closest UU is in Boise and that is over 20 miles away. I had a hard time going to the church I was going to 15 miles away. Stupid gas prices.

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