Where does the time go?

[Mommee3]

I have been so incredibly busy. I almost forgot about Cafemom. In the last year I have moved from Florida to Alabama to Florida again. I also have returned to college as a full time student and still maintaining my stay-at-home mom position. I can't believe my little boy is going to start school this fall, or that my youngest is already two. It has been a difficult transition. My husband is now working nights so  I feel like I never get to see him, and he never gets to see the kids. I envy his ability to sleep through everything during the day, sometimes they can be really loud.It is very stressful with him working nights, I don't think it is spending time with him that is bothering me, I think it's that I feel like he isn't around to help me with anything. I am starting to feel overwhelmed, with the kids and school. I am supposed to be sitting here trying to complete two finals due at the end of this week, but for some reason I can't focus. It is wierd to be alone at night once the kids are alseep. It's almost eerie. I am not used to it being so quiet....ever. It used to be...the kids would go to bed and my husband and I would get to hang out or my SIL and BIL would come over and play cards or board games with us. Now it is just quiet...just me...left with my thoughts...and a dog with really bad gas. This is the time where it would be best for me to do the things I feel like I don't have the chance to do with the kdis running around. for instance my school work, or maybe  some extra laundry that needs to be tended to. God knows theres always laundry. I would think that with noone here to bother me I would get more sleep by going to bed early, since there isnt anything else occuying me or my time. But I find it hard, I end up staying awake for hours and waking up very tired, and feeling like I could go for a nap in the afternoon, but that is not an option. I am luck if my two year old will take a nap at all. Back to feeling overwhelemd. I feel like there is too much to do. I used to get that swoping feeling every now and then, that there was just too much for one mom to accomplish in one day, but I feel like I experience that a lot more often now. I continue to make my lists, as I am an avid list maker, makes me feel organized, which I am not. I will slowly check off each small task feeling a small sense of accomplishment, but lately the list gets longer and less seems to be getting checked off. I wonder why that is.