I'm scared for tommorrow. I have HPV. I tested positive for the more dangerous strains of it. The ones that cause cervical cancer. I may *not* have it. But I have spots on my cervix they are checking tommorrow that the doctor called "Abnormal". I'm afraid. Afraid I'll have cancer. I feel like I'm too young to have it happen to me. I'm 22. I've got life ahead of me. I know people get it younger... I just never expected to have this be something I had to personally deal with.
I'm scared I won't be able to have anymore kids. I want at least one child with my husband.
I'm scared if I DO have it they'll try to cure it and it won't go away.
I'm scared I'll have to be battling cancer the rest of my life.
I'm scared of losing. Leaving my family behind.
I know I know. It's not set in stone that I have it. I know the doctor told me not to worry. But I AM worried. I just need to get all this worry off my chest. I pray that it will turn out to be nothing. But it might be something. I was fine until today. Now this appointment is tomorrow and I'm nervous. My husband is at work and I feel so alone.