going crazy with food

[sleepymamaof3]

i am very depressed (and yes, i am seeking help. i am on meds, but only for a couple of weeks, and we are still trying to get to the dosage that will help) and honestly, one of the side effects being loss of appetite and weight lose. well, not for me, i am actually starving all the time and i can't stop eating. i am always picking at something. whether it is grabbing a handful of blueberries, or picking at chocolate, or picking at the meal that i am making. i am trying so hard to watch what i eat, especially since i haven't been able to get to the gym in a while, which i am hoping to be able to start again next week. believe it or not, it's been like this for 3 weeks, and i gained back 1-2 lbs, but i am scared that i am going to be gaining more. (i am at 138 right now, and want to get back to at the most 135, my prepregnancy weight - i have a 7 month old baby - but i would love to get down to 120 when all is said and down) but i can't stop eating. i am drinking first, hoping to get rid of the urge with a nice glass or 2 of water with crystal light for flavor, but nothing, i need to eat. it's making me emotionally sick to my stomach, but i literally can't stop eating. =( i am prescribed the med by my regular doctor while i wait for my appt with a psychiatrist (which isn't for another 3 weeks, the earliest i could get it =(  ) so i really want to try to stick with this med until i get to psych. i am at 50mg once a day of Lamictal. anyone on this?