Just Thoughts and Dreams

[SalemWitchChild]

So I'm sitting here not really doing a thing. I'm thinking I want to write but haven't a clue on what subject. Some things come to mind like "The life of a bipolar wife". My DH has been moody lately. I know because he gets quiet and ignores me. When I told him the other day that he was ignoring me he denies it of course. I can also tell he's in extreme pain. He has arthritis in his entire spine and several major joints. Its hard to sit back and watch him hurt. I'm a healer, I want to help. I know I mustn't. The last time I tried to just heal his physical pain I also got the mental. (I take on the pain for a bit after healings.) I am not meant to carry such pain, its too much. Besides, he'd never let me try again.

I'm also thinking about the house we offered for. I had a dream last night about it again. Thats the 3rd time in a row. All 3 dreams are different. I don't remember two, other than I know what the subject is. But the last I was afraid we'd not be accepted. In the dream there was another higher offer for it. I know the owner accepted our offer, but the bank has to approve. Not sure if another offer could be accepted or not, but until we hear something I'm on pins and needles.

I really want to move. And I am soo tired of my mother trying to push her dog Sophie on us. Sierra stayed the day with her grandparents. When mom brought her home Sierra was saying "When we move can we have Sophie or a cat." My mother has several cats. Its a mess because many of them are dying from leukemia and she is telling my daughter she can have a cat! No thank you. And Sophie is not a dog I'd choose for ourselves. First of all shes a Basset Hound. She's cute as a button but not a breed that is suited for me. I told mom that it wouldn't suit her either. Did she listen to me? No. And now she can't stand the dog. I've given her numbers for several breed rescues but to my knowledge she has not called any of them.

Anyway, I guess I found something to write about! lol. Sorry its so long. Have a great Sunday.

[Enchantee]

Mar. 17, 2010 at 2:26 AM

Oh, honey, there's nothing quite like Spring to bring up all of the discontent, the hurts, the compassionate concerns, & the soul's deep cry. 

Trust with me that it all comes up expressly to be acknowledged & to clear.  To clear.  That's all.

Know that your compassionate attention to each of these heartfelt concerns & frustrations can transmute them into something beautiful, peaceful, & happy.  Not all at once, perhaps, but even the most lovely daffodils have to struggle for a week or two through the indignity of doggie-pooh-scented mud before they take our breath away with their sunny, sweet beauty.

You've shown us your garden.  It's muddy only for now.  It will bloom soon enough, sweet one, soon enough.

My heart is with you daily, as always...Ceci