Doing a HAPPY dance!!

[queenm77]

God has blessed us to move! We're in an apartment but guess what I'm not complaining. I finally have my family under one roof again and I give all the praise to God. Cause I know that without him, none of this could have been possible. This was the first time I experienced something like this since I've been on my own. I got my very first apartment when I was 19, it was just me and my daughter. It felt so good to be on my own. My family has evolved since then. I am married with 4 daughters now and I love it. I wouldn't have ever thought that I would be someones wife, let alone a mother of 3 more girls. But, God had a plan for me and he's not done with me. When my husband found a better paying job, I wanted to find a house to live in. God blessed us with one and we lived in it for a full year and 15 days. This recession caused my hubby to lose that particular good paying job and my hours were severly cut at my job. We kept our head above water with his unemployment but when that ran out, we had to leave our home cause my salary alone wouldn't cut it. My husband looked for a job and I was searching for him a job as well and we had no luck. So, we had to move and seperate between households because it was so many of us. This was a first for me since living on my own. Having to live with someone else, not having my own. That was such a huge ADJUSTMENT for me. Here I am 32 years old, married with 4 kids and I don't have a place to live. My family seperated Nov.15,2009. Those months of living apart from my husband and 2 of my children was heartbreaking but, God saw me through it. We lived apart for 3 months and 20 days. I thank God for blessing us with family and friends who opened there doors to all of us. I was depressed for a minute cause I just couldn't understand how we got to this point. I never thought this recession would affect us, I look back on it now and think about how naive I was. What made me and my family so different from all the other families who had been affected by it? I felt like a failure and I could only imagine how my husband felt. Our marriage had strained at the beginning of our ordeal but we saw it through and stuck together. I had to sit and reevaluate cause I was feeling sorry for me and my family. I finally pulled it together and realized that our situation could be alot worse off. My husband eventually found a job that pays pretty good, he's also taking classes in his profession so he can get some certification. I thank god for our family helping us but, I've come to know that it is nothing like having your own. My faith in God saw me through. I thank god for blessing me to enjoy being in a home for the short time we were in it.  Now, I will be 33 next month and I am laying here in bed with my hubby beside me, in our room, under our roof with 3 of our kids in our living room and our oldest at work. That feels sooooo GOOD to type that! (smile) Thank you God for guiding me through and helping me see that you will never give me too much to where I can't handle it. Long as I have you, anything is possible when I keep my trust in you. I love thee and I bless thee! AMEN!!!!!!!