just a husband vent

[IhrkeGirl]

I am so angry right now!!!!! There is so much going on, it feels like, that i don't know how to handle it. for starters, i have the worst pain in my right breast (i breastfeed). It was thrush and then the dr. thought that i might have an infection too. the meds for the infection caused the thrush to get worse so now i won't take the infection meds but at the same time the meds for the thrush don't work well at all! It feels like my whole boob is on fire, starting with my nipple!! Next, my husband acts like a little child the whole time hes home. when we go into town together he's so impulsive its rediculous! on his days off we go through almost a whole paycheck because he sees legos, stuff to make a little village for his rpg's (that he'll never actually build), candy he wont finish eating, fast food that makes him sick, and all this other ridiculous crap!!! He can't save money to save his life. When we don't go into town he sits on the couch playing games on his computer, if i hide the computer he gets out a nds, then his ipod, and now his ipod touch. He also loans money out to his friends, they owe him more than a thousand dollars!

he complains about not being able to spend time with our dd because he works so much. when hes home to see her he picks her up kisses her and sits down to play on the computer. He treats me like i'm his mother, like he expects me to do everything for him and make everything happen. he takes his clothes off wherever to change and leaves them where they dropped. I feel so hurt and unloved! sure he tells me that he loves me but his actions don't say so. his words are so empty to me now. he doesn't act like i'm his wife, a woman who needs to be sought after and showered with affection.

When i b*tch at him i get some attention but any sort of loving attention that i started to feel loved with disappears in a blink when he asks "do you feel better now? is this helping? do you mind if i go _____ (fill in the blank: play on the computer, gaming with the guys, over to so-so's house)

I tried telling him what he does but that didn't change anything. our dd doesn't like to play with him. it makes him feel like crap when he wants to play with her and she asks for me. When they're in the same room he puts her in her play yard that we got to keep her away from the fireplace and plays on the computer. when she cries he turns on the tv because shes a tv watcher. Its no wonder that shes so clingy and doesn't want to be with him.

I just want to feel loved, i want to feel needed, I want to feel wanted. I'm not his mom, his maid, his toy, or a nanny for his kid. I'm his wife and I need to be treated like it.

we both know about love languages and what you do to make people feel loved intheir love language, he just doesn't choose to act onit and thats what hurts the most. he chooses not to love me in my language.