I admit

[navyjen]

 I dont like my job anymore.  I have no desire to be here.  The fact is I have to be here.   I unfortunatly am the bread winner in our house and cant move on to see if there is something out there that I would like better.   I dont get any work done any more cause stuff here is so messed up.   My servers get messed with and my software breaks without me even touching it because other people manage the Operating Systems and the patching and the permissions.  I spend 1/2 my day trying to fix other peoples mess ups.  

I dont think I could handle being a SAHM I think after a week I would lose my mind.   I give kudos to all the moms who stay home because its not for me.  I love my kids but its best for us all that I get to come to work.   I apprecaite them so much more if I am not with them 24/7.  Which is true of anything.   IF you dont miss something how can you truly appreciate it...  But the only thing I think about all day long at work is my kids.   So I lose either way.  

Ideally I would love to go back to the software company I used to work for.   That was a great experience, but if I go sniffing around there they will tell my boss.  Small field everyone knows everyone and I currently work for the biggest customer they have in Ohio.  Another downfall to going back there is I would have to travel.   And after this weekend Ray gave Cammie Mac and cheese bake for breakfast not sure if my kids would make it with me traveling.   --Well I will pray an opportunity opens up.   A few years back they had an opening and contacted me maybe it will happen again....

I guess I better just buck up and get back to work cause bitching about it isnt gonna fix these issues.  Talking to bosses isnt gonna help.  We are short staffed, have no budget and thats how it is.   Getting me some help is out of the question.   Anyway I dont feel any better having gotten this out but maybe the more I think about it the better I will feel. 

I just know that I wont make what I make here any where else so I need to suck it up.

[August07Mom]

Mar. 15, 2010 at 10:00 AM

Hugs Jenn.  I wish had some advice for you, but I don't.  I think we all get burnt out with our jobs from time to time.

[MsHouseWife]

Mar. 16, 2010 at 5:28 PM

Sending hugs and prayers your way