It's really happening

[SoMeDaYwIlLcOmE]

 So last week I found out the news that I have been waiting for for more then 3 years now...I'm pregnant! I'm absolutely ecstatic and absolutely terrified! lol Just for a little history 3 years ago I got pregnant and ended up miscarrying. Ever since we've been trying. So far I haven't had a whole lot of symptoms, definite food aversons, some nausea, itchy bbs, slight cramping and stretching.

I have an appt on the 24th and I can't wait! Thats when I'll find out exactly how far along I am. Right now I can be anywhere from 5-12 weeks!! (Due to my PCOS) Its aggravating not knowing where I am. The docs and myself are thinking 6 wks(I'm just going along with the docs cuz I have no idea lol) but my hubby thinks I'm closer to 11 or 12. I am showing some and I'm having the stretching pains so its possible he's right. We'll see! lol

I'm just hoping and praying that this baby sticks. I dont know if I can handle another miscarriage. It was so physically and emotionally exhausting. I want this more then anything, thats all I ever imagined myself being, a mother. I'm trying to keep myself as neutral as possible, not get too excited or too worried but its so hard.

I could definitely use some guidance and some advice from some one whos been in my shoes...lol

Well Wishes!

[ErinHill226]

Mar. 15, 2010 at 4:02 PM

The first pregnant after a miscarriage is scary. I do not have fertility issues, but my first pregnancy ended in miscarriage and when I got pregnant again two years later...I did the same thing. I tried to stay neutral and not get too attached just in case it happened again. It was extremely hard to do that, however, because by that time everyone else had had a baby and I wanted one soooo bad! I remember writing a letter to God asking him to keep my baby safe and to let it work out better that time. Every cramp, twinge, pain, stretch, and leak had me terrified all over again. I used a midwife so my first appt wasn't until I was 14 weeks along. It was tortue. When I got there, I was absolutely terrified and my midwife could tell so she let me jump on the table to listen to the heartbeat first thing. It took her a minute to find it, but when she did it was the sweetest sound I'd ever heard. My face turned up in a grin and it stayed plastered there all day. Katie was born some seven and a half months later.

There is nothing I can say that will make you less afraid because for every story I could tell of a successful pregnancy after a loss...you can counter it with "yeah, but what if..." so I won't try. I can only say that miracles do happen, most pregnancies are healthy, and your chances or having a healthy and happy little one this time are totally in your favor.

Good luck, and congrats on your upcoming baby!!!

[SoMeDaYwIlLcOmE]

Mar. 15, 2010 at 7:19 PM

Thanks for the support! Its very hard! I think I'll feel better when I get my first ultrasound on the 24th and i'll also know how far along I am.

See my last pregnanct my first ultrasound I got to hear the babys heartbeat and everything and then a week later I lost it, I'm so worried its going to happen this time!

(Original Poster)

[daisyb]

Mar. 15, 2010 at 10:09 PM

 

      Congratulations & Wishing you the best with your Little Bundle of Joy...............

[mom2charlie]

Mar. 16, 2010 at 1:17 AM

i know that its very hard but its very uncommun for you to miscarraige after you get into your next trimester so ill pray for you and try to not worry so your baby isnt stressed god bless you and good luck!

[Lb128f]

Mar. 16, 2010 at 2:00 AM

[mimilinda]

Mar. 16, 2010 at 5:53 AM

Congratulation and lots of baby dust to you!!!!

[blkberrydrop]

Mar. 16, 2010 at 8:57 PM Congrats!

[blkberrydrop]

Mar. 16, 2010 at 8:58 PM

orHealthy vibes coming ur way!

[SoMeDaYwIlLcOmE]

Mar. 16, 2010 at 9:01 PM

Not sure if its gonna work out for me ladies! Started spotting today, I know it can be normal but with my history its frightening. Keep me in your thoughts if you could!

(Original Poster)

[ErinHill226]

Mar. 16, 2010 at 11:01 PM

I have a friend that  happened to after having two miscarriages and  she was freaking out also. They'd been trying many years. Her baby is fine! Don't panic just yet! Prayers to you.