***UPDATE*** to "I've Been...."

[momslilmonsters]

Well in the last month I've gone for all different types of tests. I've had an brain MRI, A CT  scann, and a contive test done. I'm goign to a cosuler next monday and then a phsyc dr. next month. I'm on happy pills . but I feel there is more trauma to all this. My kids and I are doing good.. He hasn't been back... And i'm loving my life, kids and who I am right now. Sorry this is so late but I had to get well and seek people to talk to. I have a very good support system at home and at work...

It's not easy to stay away for the one you loved, cared, and wanted to be with the rest of your life.... but i'm doing it.. my sons are doing much better now.. they listen better and thier more relxed .

 

I think as time goes on i'll feel more better about myself and wanna start dating again. How ever i haven't been out with friends or have any effort in going out with friends to have drink or two.. everynow and again...

But i do think I'll wanna go oout and be me again soon. I'm back at work full-time again too. the dr. didn't want me to loose all my confidance . but i feel more at ease with my self. then I did before. there is no woring that he might coem back and do it again or, if he goes out with his friends is he goign to come home and hit me ... those feelings are gone .. i feel free as a bird... lovin my kids ....

 

So this is what i've been up too int ha last month... sorry that the update is so late. but i had alot of testing to get done... and had to get better physically and emotionly ...

 

thanks for all your advice , love and support.... for we are woman and shouldn't be treated in such a manor by anyman... Im learnign that I'm a better person now.. but the scars are there. and will always be there.. 

 

     Thanks ladies,

 

    Alicia