My weight struggle

[nessy1980]

 I am a mom to 3 kids. When I had my oldest I had gained weight so I freaked out and went on a liquid diet. I lost soooo much weight it was horrible. Well since Ive had my oldest I have had a hard time gaining weight. I do well when I am pregnant but once I have the baby the pounds leave with it. I hate the comments I get such as omg why dont you eat a burger or you need to gain weight. I look in the mirror everday its a bit obvious I need to gain weight. Everyday I see myself I want to cry. Its a constant struggle to not ignore my hunger pains. I am always hungry but I just shrug it off. Its so bad now that I am 5'7 and I fit in a size 1 jeans. Some call it lucky but when you look in the mirror and see your bones and know you cause it, it turns into a nightmare. I at first was scared to gain weight, then it turned into I dont want my family to struggle financially because I am eating. My dh had to convince me we wouldnt be broke because of my eating. I would love to be overweight. I go outside and get scared because people might call me a druggie something I am not. I dont even drink. So for all of you who think thin people have it easy guess again. A woman with meat on her bones is way better looking instead of a person who is boney.