I love my husband!

[mrs_pulley]

Its been so long since I wrote about how amazing my husband is (so go ahead and move on to the next journal ladies :) but I have been flatly humbled and borderline embarrassed by how lucky I am to have him and all the things he's done for me lately.

I guess a lot of it started when I found out I was pregnant. It wasn't a surprise but I don't think I was as emotionally ready as I was convinced practically and so I had some emotions to deal with. He was really great in being there for me as I talked out my anxieties ala a broken record :) Not much after that, I started having complications. He was there for me every step. I had to go on bedrest and he more than stepped up to the plate. He took care of housework, picked up after me (which is a whole category separate to housework), and pulled more than his weight with Emma. He even cooked! This was all during his job's busy season where he easily could work 10 hr days and had to come in saturdays. He truly had no time for himself and then would come home to virtually single parent and never made me feel like I was a burden. He even (and still) will run around inside and out with Emma, be it playing soccer or pretending to be a bear and sneaking up on one another. I don't know if I could have shown as much grace or stamina in his position. He would even spend time comforting me when my emotions peaked and would never throw his own into the mix.

 Now I'm off restrictions but he's still finding ways to just floor me. He know how important it is for me to feel positive things about the pregnancy in light of all the recent issues and hasn't said a word to me about spending on baby clothes, nursery and the toddler room we just finished. He's very much a conservative spender and I know this is no small thing for him, nor can it be easy and for that I am truly appreciative.

This past week marked the unofficial end to his busy season and so he took the week off. We spent the first few days down in St. Louis, really as a treat for me (because I have fatalistically viewed this week as the last vacation we have before our whole world is turned on its head) and the rest of the week as been a flurry of activity as we spend time with family coming up for Emma's birthday and I try to finish baking and otherwise preparing for the party. He cleaned so much; hauling bin after bin into the crawl space and even taking on organizing projects that weren't critical to the week. Yet he was there in a second when I ran out of sugar and would immediately leave for the store, and was always there to take my five subsequent "rider" calls for extra things I forgot. His skill and charm even netted us an extra balloon and a free replacement coffee drink! He looked great at the party and was a great cameraman.

Right now he's taking a couple hours to prep for a new client and I again am in admiration of his dedication. He doesn't do all these things for Emma and especially me and then his work suffers. He's a great employee and his boss and the partner loves him. He's charming and friendly and somehow even when he says the goofiest thing, he gets the best reaction from people.

How do you thank someone for all that? All I can do is tell him how thankful I am because I don't think I could match the intensity in which he so easily shows his devotion. The physical energy and the emotional restraint are things that I frankly do not have enough of. I certainly now have fresh motivation to continue to improve myself and go the extra mile, but I can't help but think he'll just find new ways to amaze me. Its so easy to get on this website and read page after page of negative relationship issues that it may be hard to believe there are guys like this out there...and you know? maybe some of you read this and don't even think its all that impressive. But he comes home every single day and 100% commits himself to being a father and husband, flatly never putting himself before us and never putting an ounce of guilt on me, expect in the inherent nature that he's so amazing and I don't think I can match him! He shares his problems and concerns of course, but lately he does so with consideration for my own feelings and problems. I don't know how I got so lucky but I knew from the day I met him that I wanted him in my life. I am so incredibly thankful that I have him. I don't think another man could have stepped up in the past several months (and really before) in the ways he has. I would be an entirely different person without him and so would our daughter. Frankly a small part of me married him because I knew what a fantastic dad he would be and he's done everything to prove me right. I think the other reasons I married him are pretty evident, but there is a whole other kind of love that's relationship love and married with kids love that I had no way of forseeing. He's completely blown relationship love out of the water. Maybe I'll never be able to match his enthusiasm and pure devotion so overtly, but I love him so much and am nothing but thankful everyday for what an amazing man he is!