Terrified about tomorrow

[SoMeDaYwIlLcOmE]

 I know I should really be calm about things and not think so negative but I can't help to get absolutely terrified of my appts. I'm so scared thatt I'm going to go in and they're going to give me bad news. I want this baby more then anything. These past 3 years have been so hard. I can't help thinking that I don't deserve it. That I can't have everything I want.

I know its kinda silly, there has been anything hinting that there is anything to worry about this time around but I can't help it. Most days I'm great, its just when it gets close to an appt, and unfortunately I'll probably be this way the entire pregnancy. lol Only 215 more days to go!! hahahahahaha

I'm really hoping and wishing for an ultrasound tomorrow but I'm pretty sure all it will be is paperwork and bloodwork. MAYBE they'll try the doppler. They didn't tell me anything to expect and I didn't think about asking when I scheduled and now I wish I did. I would call but since its tomorrow I'll just wait. lol The ultrasound will make me feel so much better though. Even the doppler if they pick up the heartbeat.

i'll have an update for you probably tomorrow. FINGERS CROSSED its good!

[Starchild84]

Apr. 15, 2010 at 3:45 PM

Good luck.  I hope everything goes well for you.

[mrs.patrick]

Apr. 15, 2010 at 5:51 PM

i'm not real sure how far along you are but they will probably do the doppler, i worry constantly! dont worry its normal - good luck!!

[ErinHill226]

Apr. 15, 2010 at 10:34 PM

Totally normal, especially after a miscarriage. I still did it this time around and I've had a healthy pregnancy in between! One word of caution though: If you aren't at least 14 weeks they SOMETIMES can find the heartbeat with a doppler if they baby is a weird position. I remember my midwife telling me that, so she never does one before then so as to not freak the woman out. So if you aren't that far yet and they don't find it...don't freak out!