Spiraling

[MPWifeJessicia]

I'm spiraling right now. I am so tired I don't know what to do. I am tired of this. I am mad at myself for even feeling the way that I do. I am super stressed over something very simple, and it sent me into a whirlwind. It's so frustrating dealing with depression. Every time I think I'm on track, I go down again. Each time I fall seems to be a little harder than the last. I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to throw my hands up and surrender. What is more frustrating is having no one in my life who truly understands. Sure, I have friends who can listen, but none who really know what it's like to feel so out of control. My husband, who really is a good man, seems to turn a deaf ear and a blind eye when I need him the most. This sucks.

[meandmyshadow]

Apr. 22, 2010 at 10:03 AM

I know exactly how you feel, just when you think you're feeling better it hits.  It hits so hard you don't know what to do.  You just want to sit and cry. I remember wanting to throw the coffee table through the living room window.  Do you see a DR about this.  The meds do help a little.  I'm basically on an even keel.  When I worked it was better, try to get out every day, even for just a walk.  Believe me I do know.  PM me if I can help or just listen.

[Ms.Tamara]

Apr. 23, 2010 at 12:19 PM

I'm sorry Jess. have you thought about talking to someone. I used the free service over at military one source and it helped me so much in dealing with stress, depression and commuication. If you need anything I'm away here. hugs.