The Cost of Wisdom

[marcie1455]

I've always admired women like my Grandmother and my Mother.  They have so much wisdom to share.  I love their insights about life and the strength of their words.  When I am down they uplift me so easily.  I've always heard the biblical phrase that talked about the fact that there is nothing new under the sun, and how everything that is happening now in the world has in some form or another happened before.  I am personally going through a trying situation right now in my life.  It is a test of my strength and my moral fiber.  I asked God why must I go through this trial, more so at this particular point in my life.  I have been quiet, peaceful and still awaiting the answer from God.  My mother seemed to be the person to have had the answer.  It was as if God put the words into her mouth to speak to me.  It turned out mom personally had experienced a painful situation similarly to what I am going through on two different separate occasions in her life.  Her words were comforting and I felt so much better.  Her wise words helped to influence the path I needed and chose to take.  I wished I could be so wise, but than I realized my mother's strength and the wisdom came at a tremendous price.  She had experienced what I was going two times over and at double the amount pain. 

I later thought intensely about the fact that I enjoyed benefiting from her insightful wisdom, but I would never want to experience the loss and what mom had to go through "doubled the despair," as I am having such a difficult time navigating through my own singular current pain.  

I realize when one exercises they build muscle, life teaches us and builds us up through many disappointments, losses and hurts along the way.  I am learning to become more resilient and to rely on my inner strength.  Someday, as my children grow up I am sure they will rely on me to get them through their pain or to be a sounding board for them.  I ask the Lord to please just give me the strength and to come by any "excessive wisdom" that will help them by simply "learning from others" and not actually having to experience so much first hand.

Marcie

 

[my5]

Apr. 23, 2010 at 8:00 PM

Very well written. ((HUGS)) to you for wharever trials you are experiancing!!

[marcie1455]

Apr. 29, 2010 at 7:35 AM

Thanks for the ((HUGS))  I appreciate you so much (more than you will ever know)!  Thanks for being there for me.  Today...my trials have become very daunting.  I will post more very soon.  Just pray that the Lord will give me the strength to be strong.  God Bless You!

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