He Will Always Be My Baby.

[treystiredmommy]

When my son was brand new, I never wanted to put him down.  I didn't like leaving him to go to work, even though he was home with his Daddy.  But as he grew older he liked to play on the floor or in his jump-jump.  As he became more mobile, he also became more independant.  He doesn't always want to hang out and cuddle with Mommy.  Sure, I still get kisses every day and we do play and sing songs, but I never get to just hold him and love him like I used to.  I really miss that stage.  I've even joked with DH that it's time to have another one to cuddle like my son and I used to.

But today, my son spiked a fever.  Nothing serious.  Just the lovely bug that has been going around.  But between the rest and fluids, I get to cuddle him and comfort him.  Tonight, I heard him awake in his crib and went in to check him temp.  He still had a higher fever than is beneficial to the body so I gave him his medicine.  I filled his cup with Pedia-Lite and we went into the living room and curled up on the couch.  I cuddled him in the crook of my arm, just like I used to during our quiet time before bed.  I looked at him and realized he's still so little.  I never think about it like that, being that he is about 4 times the size he was when he was born.  He walks now.  He plays the drums.  He tells me when he wants his cup, or he's hungry.  He climbs on everything.  He tears apart my house looking for things to play with.  He doesn't need me like he used to.

Upon my realization that he is still tiny and still fragile,  I also realized that he will always be my baby.  He will always need me for something.  Whether it's making breakfast when he gets up, comforting hiim when he is sick, telling him that girl wasn't good enough for him, or just for love and support.  As silly as it sounds, I'm his Mommy and he will always be my baby.  Today, it finally, REALLY hit me for the first time, and it warms my heart and makes me so happy.

[MunchiesMom324]

Apr. 28, 2010 at 5:37 PM

This made me cry!  I'm thinking back to the journal post I made when DS3 turned one (a few weeks ago).  He's my sweet baby, the other two never wanted to cuddle mommy, if they got in my lap they wanted to play or hit or something else (use me as a stool to get to whatever was out of their reach)... but DS3 loves to cuddle. He'll asked to be held and I'll pick him up, he just lays with his head on my chest... sometimes he gives wet sloppy kisses, but mostly just hugs.  Now that he's more mobile, he's just not that "into" mommy.  I miss it.