Mother's day a bittersweet reminder your without a child.

[Cindylilies]

During this time of the year you hear it on t.v. , you many even see a Hallmark commercial once or twice.   You may get a card from someone who remembers, and yet this year no one may remember, and you get no card.    

You get invited for events, where your surround by happy moms who now have kids.   To be next to a friend and they be told, "Happy Mother's day" and you not.   You just smile, and and slowly move away.   To be told, hanging a few only photo's of your kid(s) on a wall to be wrong.   I am happy for those of my fellow sisters that have found hope, and now carry a new child in their womb, your watching them taking their first steps, or hearing them say, "mama".   You give me hope for my future but till then I will hurt.  

 I sent out several Mother's day card, more then a week ago, sadly not one person called, sent, or e-mail me a greeting.   Yes, I understand you just  don't know where you stand, your dammed if you do, or dammed if you don't.

So to all those that now have bundles of joy, congrats, cherish them, hug them a little closer this weekend, and just love them.     I am sorry for the loss you suffered a while ago, either a it be 3 months ago, 2 weeks ago, or like me almost two years ago, it never goes away, you just learn each day to walk.

To those like myself, you have no kids as of yet, or have decide I am unable, or just can't dream of trying again, I am sorry for you loss and the pain of being unable to.    Its a pain we share this bittersweet motherhood childless club.   We never asked for membership yet somehow our card got stamped, without our knowledge.

 

[misslilac71]

May. 9, 2010 at 12:42 PM

Even though I am a mother to a wonderful 18 year old, my heart still aches for my little Rylan.  I do understand how you feel.  Thanks for the Mother's Day greeting you left me on my page yesterday.  You are very sweet.  Though your child is not here with you, you too are a mother.  Don't forget that.  That is something no one can take away from you.  I hope you find some joy in knowing you too are a mommy....to a little angel.

Happy Mother's Day

((((hugs)))))

Sharie