It's been one whole year today and it's still so inconceivable that my mother is "gone". When someone is so much a part of your life it's hard to grasp that fact that they really aren't "here" anymore. So many times this year I've thought, "I'll call mom and her what the name of that song is." or "I'll call mom and ask her the name of that composer." or "I need to ask her what that recipe is." or "Carol and I should call mom and play our duet for her. She'd love it!" And so many other things whether it was about what she experienced with menopause or what she thought about a certain thing or just to tell her how much I love and appreciate her. Truly I've been an emotional wreck in many ways. Yes, of course I am so happy that she is with the Lord and having all her questions answered and isn't having any more physical ailments. But that just doesn't lesson the pain and the whole in my heart. I believe there is a God-shaped whole in us that can only be filled by the One True God. But now I also believe there is a "Mom"-shaped whole too.
"For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known." 1 Corinthians 13:12
This was one of my mom's favorite verses. There were many things in the Bible she didn't understand but she always came be to this verse and it always gave her comfort. This verse has come to have a new meaning to me. So many times over the past year I've asked the Lord, "Why". She was so young! 77. She was always so vibrant and full of life, ready to... (please continue at the link below)