Resignation As An Adult

[Quoiky]

To WHOM IT MAY CONCERN:

I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of a six-year-old again. I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four-star restaurant. I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make ripples with rocks. I want to think M&M's are better than money, because you can eat them. I want to play kick-ball during recess and paint with watercolors in art. I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summers' day and be able to drink away the profits.

I want to return to a time when life was simple. When all you knew were colors, addition tables and simple nursery rhymes, when these things didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care. When all you knew was to be happy because you didn't know all the things that should make you worry and upset. I want to think that the world is fair. That everyone in it is honest and good. I want to believe that anything is possible.

Somewhere in my youth... I matured and I learned too much. I learned of nuclear weapons, war, prejudice, starvation and abused children and animals. I learned of lies, unhappy marriages, suffering, illness, pain and death. I learned of a world where men left their families to go and fight for our country, and sometimes didn't return, or they returned with missing limbs or they ended up living on the streets...begging for their next meal. I learned of a world where children knew how to kill... and did!

What happened to the time when we thought that everyone would live forever, because we didn't grasp the concept of death? When we thought the worse thing in the world was if someone took the jump rope from us or picked us last for kickball? I want to be oblivious to the complexity of life and be overly excited by little things once again. I want to return to the days when reading was fun and music was clean. When television was used to report the news or for family entertainment and not to promote sex, violence and deceit. I remember being naive and thinking that everyone was happy because I was. I would walk on the beach and only think of the sand between my toes and the prettiest seashell I could find. I never worried about how awful the oil spill in the middle of the ocean miles and miles away from me would affect this beautiful sand.

I would spend my afternoons climbing trees and riding my bike. I didn't worry about time, bills or where I was going to find the money to fix my car. I used to wonder what I was going to do or be when I grew up, not worry about what I'll do if that choice doesn't work out.

I want to live a simple life again. I don't want my day to consist of computer crashes, mountains of paperwork, depressing news, how to survive more days in the month than there is money in the bank, doctor bills, gossip, illness and loss of loved ones. I want to believe in the power of smiles, hugs, a kind word, truth, justice, peace, dreams, the imagination, mankind and making angels in the snow.

I want to be six again.

 

[Lb128f]

May. 28, 2010 at 8:57 PM

I want to join you! :-) Powerful post...so true!

[MamaSusieQ045]

May. 28, 2010 at 11:45 PM

awesome post! i wish i could explain this to my kids, i can remember when i was little everyone saying ''dont grow up to fast''. and i can remember thinking, why the heck wouldnt i want to grow up fast, grown ups have all the fun.

boy was i wrong

[cmissamy]

May. 29, 2010 at 12:43 AM

Love your post, it made me think of what time was once like. And make me hold my children tighter.

[MunchiesMom324]

May. 29, 2010 at 9:32 AM

So appropriate that you would post this today, of all days.  I had the most atrocious morning, what with one dog being in heat (and you can guess that I've been seperating dogs all morning) and said doggie not going outside to go potty, three screaming, clingy kids that dont know the meaning of quiet and insist on seeing who can get the farthest up mommy's butt, and the other people in this house (DH, kids, etc) failing to treat mommy like a person. 

I told DH I was moving.  I wont do it, but I don't want this.  I want peace, quiet... I want to be six!!!