I am very angry........

[Kim370]

Im just mad and I HATE my life!!!      Almost 4 years have gone by since my separation and we moved from Atlanta to my home town where my parents are.  And, I dont see any improvements with my life.  Everytime I think things are getting better, something screws it up.  I am lonely, I have lost a lot of friends, the house we leave in is a disaster, I have no career, and I cant concentrate on my classes.  In fact, I took a break from classes because I got too tired and overwhelmed.  I am NOT appreciated for anything that I do.  My son is a smart a$$ and blames me for the divorce.  Their dad is the "good parent" and buys them everything, and has the "perfect" life.  I am a 44 year old single mom with no future.  I seriously hate everything now, and I wish I had another life.  Im waiting for something to happen to my health because of it.  I have gained weight, and I dont feel like exercising.  I dont wear my seatbelt anymore because I dont give a crap.

[Kim370]

Jun. 2, 2010 at 10:19 PM

Typical that there are no comments.  Where can I get good advice???

(Original Poster)

[daisyb]

Jun. 2, 2010 at 10:40 PM

 

  WOW- It sounds like you have alot going on- I'm sorry you are feeling so down right now- It might be a good idea to make a appointment to talk to someone about how you are feeling- You sound pretty depressed- I see in your tags that "Suicide" is in there; if you are feeling Suicidal Please call someone Now- The suicide Hot-Line can help you get through the crisis you having right now- I know sometimes things seem so out of control that there doesn't feel like you will ever see the light at the end- But, there is one & things will get better- Saying Lots of Prayers for you-Please talk to someone-

[daisyb]

Jun. 2, 2010 at 10:45 PM

 

  Crisis Hot-Line # is: 1-800-TALK (8255) Free & Confidential- Please Call Them!

[roseisrose]

Jun. 3, 2010 at 2:05 AM

this is not good hon- [as I know you're already aware of]...

I would have written sooner, but I just now saw your post... and I've got a lot going on here as well... and we might be loosing our apartment soon.... I do know of how things can just sort of spiral out of control.

you are not alone and there is nothing wrong with the way you feel but I do think you should try and seek some real support and help from someone close in your area. please don't say you hate your life hon, what would your kids do without you if you weren't there? -your ex isn't a real gem so they need you sweetie.... please don't give up. my mother has stage 4 colon cancer and is fighting for her life-- it is affecting my entire family... the thought of life without her is unthinkable... its utter pain. Pure pain.

You must realize your worth... you do mean a lot. Please sweetie, get some support and maybe things will seem a lot easier to handle. Maybe medication would help-- if things are caused by chemicals in your brain, then medicine might be an answer.

Please, please hang in there- don't give up!!!!