my life is forever changed

[s.h.star]

I haven't been on this site in at least 6 months.. My life now is so much different than it was then. I am sad to even write this but I feel like its good to not keep it in.. The best man I ever knew took his life on May 26th 2010. My son's father is gone forever. His family blames me and says I drove him to suicide. I know its not my fault. He was suicidal before we even met. We were happy together and those feelings he had went away but were still buried deep down. Times got very rough with us. He couldn't deal with these rough times and just gave up. Now that he is gone, I am not only dealing with my grief but now his family is fighting me for custody and trying to take my children. I went from having full custody to the next day being put on a strict safety plan and seeing my boys a few times a week on supervised visits. This is because his family had 15 of their friends call and make allegations against me. None of these allegations were proven and they can't be because they are lies. But not only have I lost the love of my life and best friend but now I am living without my boys. These poor children need me so bad right now and these people who claim to be trying to do whats right for the children are hurting them the most by keeping us apart. I don't know when I will be back on this site but PLEASE PRAY FOR ME AND MY SONS ASHTON JACOB AND BRAXTON JAX!! We need each other and i will do my best to give them a wonderful life but now i have to fight just to do that.

[older]

Jun. 15, 2010 at 3:19 PM

I am so sorry so much despair in your life and sorrow for a lost one, fight with all your might for those kids. Hugs.

[carolhas2kids]

Jun. 15, 2010 at 4:29 PM

I am sorry for your loss. Sounds like you need a good advicate or a lawyer.

Good luck!

[s.h.star]

Jun. 15, 2010 at 5:01 PM

Dealing with the pain and fighting hard everyday all day.. I will never give up.

(Original Poster)

[Debalexxa]

Jun. 15, 2010 at 11:53 PM

wow.... keep positive sending my love , hugs, and prayers :)

[Cochise]

Jun. 26, 2010 at 8:06 PM

Oh my...I am sooooo sorry... I had no idea. ....   I lost my first husband too...but it was drowning...and the son I had with him I lost a few years ago...an accidental drug o.d.      I know your pain in a certain way...      Your in my prayers.