Ladies I need you to pray for me!! I have been going through alot since I had my second baby Who is now 4 months old!and my daughter who will be 2 in less then a month. I have been stuggling alot with PPD. I had before with my daugther. But not this bad. I depessed all that time. I fight with my husband all the time. He tells me that I need to grow up and be a mom that I so desperly wanted to be.He tells me all the time that I need to get on some meds I am angry all the time! I realey show my emotines to anyone! My mil is getting on my nerves I tild her that my kids are only getting older and all that she keeps throwing in my face. When my son crys like if I put him in his crib so I can go make a bottle or I am chaning his daiper she tells my 4 month old son Oh Nana would never do that to you I love you and I would never do that to you. She always has told me good thing you got your tubes tied other wise there would be another baby on the way! That really upset me! We decided to have my ties tied because I could risk my health to have another baby. I could die from it! So we choose that! I can't talk to her about anything anymore not like I used to because she will say something to my FIL and all heck breaks loose. So I keep my mouth shut most of the time. Or until I can't take it and I just want to leave and I don't want to come back. I hate feeling like this I really do. My husband is hounding me to gt my DL Well it's hard to study when I have two kids that needs my attention. The only time I have by myslef is either when the kids are down for the night or I am in the shower. He works night so it's just me and the kids and my in laws because we are living with them because May of last year he lost his job. Therefore we lost our place and had to move with his mom and dad! I love his dad dearly but he is turning my daugther into a spoiled brat We say no he says yes! She screams he gives her what she wants. We have told him time and time before not to do that. But he does it anyways my BIL is a different story he thinks he's God's gift to women. He's very rude sloppy. Doesn't take of himself. Always thinks he right Using our things with out asking. He is a good uncle to our kids but he is just a jerk. I am trying to make the best of it I really am My husband is always saying I don't repect him. That I never say thank you for anything he does for me. That's not true! When I get tired he thinks I should be super mom. I can't do that. He thinks I don't need any rest or a break. He thinks Iyell at our daugther way to much if she does something wrong. Or He thinks that I don't care about him or our family that's isn't true they are my entire world. I love them more then life itself I would never leave them. He has often told me that I am a wonderful mother but a horrible wife! Nothing I ever do pleases them. He tells me all the time that if we ever got divorced that I would lose everything. I mean I love my husband with all my heart but I really hate the way he treats me some times. I know that God will some how get me through this he put me in this mess and he will pull me out when he feels I am ready to be out of it! I just need some advice! I know most of your will say go talk to someone That's the thing I don't want to talk to someone! I don't want my marriage to end! Because of my PPD!