J.O.B.

[thedollymama]

 I was just talking to my husband about how I thought it was time for me to go back to work.  I've been a stay-at-home chic for a little over six years and I'm ready to get back in the saddle.  He was in total agreeance, mainly because I have been a little crazy these days, but also because he has always had a desire to start his own business and has recently been thinking about it very seriously.  We agreed that once I hooked myself an awesome, soul-satisfying, great-paying, benefit-amazing, gig that he would quit his job and focus on building his business.  Sounds like a decent, well thought out plan, doesn't it?  

Well, as I began to dig in, I realized things were going to be a little harder than I had initially visualized.  Here's the kicker - Mommy hasn't been in the workforce for nearly sever years.  Mommy still doesn't know what she wants to do when she grows up and Mommy basically feels like her IQ has dropped to a first-grade level.  To say I am a little nervous and intimidated to get back out there is an understatement.  I haven't even thought about a resume in ten years. 

And then, of course, there is the pride factor.   I am going to be applying for positions that fresh out-of college, over-eager, not-yet-jaded, vultures will also be applying for.  I realize that being out of work for this amount of time, I probably won't be able to land a job at the level I obtained in my previous life, and I have to say, that is kinda hard to swallow.  Here I am, just short of 40 years old and am probably having to start all over. I'm just hoping that all those years of experience aren't down the drain because of a seven-year, 503-diaper, six antibiotic-round, eleven homemade-costume, gap. 

Just as I am sure many of you have experienced, the decision to stop working and stay home with my kids was not an easy one to make.  I had always worked and working was a part of my identity, and I got a real sense of satisfaction from the work I did.  I enjoyed it, I was good at it and I made a lot of good friends through the positions I held.  I wasn't so sure I was ready to give all that up.  I do not regret at all the time I have been able to spend at home with my kids at this age, but truth is, they are getting older and less dependent on me and I am spending more and more time alone.  I always knew one day I would go back to work, so I'm kind of excited (and a little scared) about the situation we have suddenly found ourselves in.  I am looking forward to using my brain in some capacity other than measuring out cough medicine or remembering to take library books back.  I am also looking forward to contributing financially to our family again.  Will it be tough to leave my kids everyday?  Of course it will.  We've gotten quite used to each other.   But soon they will be in school everyday and will forget about their poor old Mommy, but that's ok.  They are independent little souls and I know they will be all right.  On the other hand, Mommy is also an independent soul and misses that little part of my life that was all my own.  Keep your fingers crossed for me!

 

 

[dancer]

Jul. 8, 2010 at 5:24 PM

What kind of job r u going for??

[thedollymama]

Jul. 14, 2010 at 9:32 AM

dancer, Ya know, Im open at this point.  My job experience is in Public Relations, but I am willing to try something new if need be.  Maybe a change would be good.  I have been contacting some of the folks I used to work with, etc. and getting my resume out there.  It certainly is a long and painstaking process, but I am sure something will come up soon! (Hopefully!)

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