I am happy.

[Candikisses21]

I'm having this over-abundant and completely ridiculously happy moment in the middle of the night.  I just finished typing a paper for my Financial Management Principles Class, and just had several thoughts running through my head of how blessed and happy I am.  I'm happy to have a wonderful husband who is literally one of my most honest and positive best friend.  I have two beautiful AND healthy babies that I love and adore more than anything in this world.  Everyday I wake up and smile because they light up my life, sorry for the cliche'.  They sparkle and shine with innocence, love, purity, and LIFE.  I love it!!  My family makes my every moment and every second worth it; the struggles, the hardships, and the stepping stones.  It is so strange to say that no matter what happens in my life I take it and find a simple way to measure it so I can overcome it.  ..*Sigh*.  I complain a lot, I bicker, and roll around in hurt from my past just like everyone else.  Somehow in the last year I have found a way to look at life and learn to enjoy it and to LIVE it.  

I am an obstacle fighting machine that can save money, that can breastfeed, that can recycle and be green, that is learning to become a better parent that doesn't loose her temper, going to find a way to loose the baby weight, and learning how to become a better wife.  I am a coffee drinking machine that is learning how to function on 1/2 caff coffee consumption, a full time TIRED student of two children, a teacher, a friend, a sister, a role model, an OCD accepting but not so good at staying home and keeping up with her house, a daughter who is trying to be a better one, and most of all.. I am learning how to let go!!  Whewww.  Thanks for listening!!  Signing off.  -Goodnight.   

"I’ve been learning to drive.
My whole life,
I’ve been learning."