aggggg,stupied,a$$hole crap,aaaaawwwww!!!

[crazybeautif23]

its so frustrating how one day we r doing so good and the next he is soooooooo AWWWWW! 2 years ago he was in the military and he asked me for a divorice.

now it came out of no where for me i was under the impreshion that we were happy and fine and not going throw anything more then any othere military family.

 

but come to find out one day out of the blue ont only did he want a divorce but the whole 4 years of r mil life he has been cheating on me and going to strip cloubs and just being a dirt bag. i found all this out and had a real hard time getting passed it.

 

now upto date we r still together and i love him varry much. we have worked thoru all this crap or at least i thought we have . i fealt like he has told me every thing and hes been honest finaly. but to my suprise i find out last night that he still hasent been honest with me. that he still hasent told me every thing  that he did wrong and....i know its old news and i know its over now but when it comes up aain like this its like it just happend all over agian. it hurts all over again. sigh...... what should i do  get it out of him  because i can tell that if i sat him down hed tell me. i feel like hes holding back for me cause he dosent want to hurt me. sigh...or should i just let it go?

 

i know its not going to change anything i know he cant take it back and i all so know hes not doing it anymore. i trust him now and we have worked hard to get to where we r now. but its driving me kind of crazy. i feel like its going to be in the back of my head for ever. i just want it to be over all ready. i dont want to lose him. i dont want thou stupied bitchies to be the reason we fall apart.

 

i think i just answerd my owen qustion.... i love him and i know what he has done i may not know the details but i do know he cheated and now were trying to move on. god please give me the streanth to let go and move on and love him for him.

 

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