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Dreams are an amazing insight into the subconscious...
- Jul 28, 2010 at 11:01 AM
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So for over 15 years now, when I have a bad dream, it always involves the house we used to live in when I was a kid. We moved there when I was 5. While we lived there, some bad things happened: my mom struggled with pain med addiction, she had to have surgery and was gone for over a month, my parents divorced, I fell through a window and still carry really bad scars from it, my dad had his first heart attack and stroke, and then it burned when I was 13.
All
of my bad dreams/nightmares begin and usually stay around that house,
all messed up, burned, destroyed... And in the dreams I'm usually being
hunted or chased, or the walls are falling in on me...
Sometime
this morning I started dreaming. I was walking up the steps to the
house. Someone was living there. I didn't know. The outside looked
the same. I opened the door and it was a chick that I knew from my
past. They had completely remodeled the inside of the house. The roof
was fixed. The smoke damage was gone. They had hung new sheet rock and
painted. They completely redid the kitchen, new carpets and flooring. They
added a couple of rooms on to the back, and restored a couple of pieces
of furniture that had been in the fire, that I could take at any time. There were two extra bathrooms,
completely new... While she showed me around, I knew it wasn't home
anymore. I felt like I was in someone else's house; I was just
visiting. It was their place now, and it was ok. I could finally let
go...
Isn't that amazing? This past Monday, my life took an amazing turn. Things are going to get better. I've said that before, but now I know that I honestly, in the deepest part of my heart, fully believe it.
I haven't felt this good in a very long time.
Comments:
awww hugs! thats awesome! :) I'm happy for you!
Wow... that is crazy. That sounds so much like my childhood that it's scary! We moved into a house (from a trailer) when I was about 2 years old. I loved that house but every time I think of it, I think of all the bad things that happened there -- my dad beating my mom on a regular basis, my Aunt Susie (my mom's sister) being murdered there by her husband and then him shooting himself in our front door way (when we got home we had to step over his body to get in and then found her dead in the kitchen... and this is when I was only 5 yrs old), and then after that happened my mom had such a hard time dealing with it that she started drinking heavily and turned into a full blown alcoholic... which led to our relationship going downhill fast (it's better now though-- she quit drinking a few years ago) and me being more of a mother to her than she was to me.Then, one week before my 9th birthday the house burned down and we lost everything.
Anyway, I have had dreams about this house, just like you had dreams about yours... just not as detailed. For example, one time I had a dream that I was being chased through the house but I couldn't see who was chasing me and the inside of the house looked totally different ... but somehow I knew it was the same house.
Well, I will stop rambling now... I just thought it was really weird that our situations were so similar!
I'm glad you feel better about everything now!
I am happy that you can finally move on ;-)
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaay!
I have the same interpretation of that dream. YAY!! Your life is getting a facelift. Make sure you tell us if you see that chick or someone very similar to her ;)
Turning that corner to a better place is so freeing. I am so happy for you!
Thank you, everyone, for reading!
And thanks JenMarie for sharing your story with us! It is amazing how similar our stories are, although yours is more tragic and I'm sorry you had to go through all of that. I do hope you are able to find the peace I have found and the relief that comes with it!
I am so excited about starting this new job and us being able to finally get out of this hole we've dug ourselves into!
Dreams do mean something!! Hope you're getting enough peaceful sleep. May things continue to look up and better for you & your Family!
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that is so awesome!
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