After two years of ttc......

[sunfreezeinmi]

I had an early miscarriage. For a couple days, all was well with the world. It felt complete in a way it never has. And now..nothing. I'm broken inside. I'll never be the same. I want to stop dwelling on it, but....I can't seem to get away from it. I want my baby back. I want her to have a chance to live. But it's too late. There's nothing I can do to bring her back. I wish I'd never existed. I'd trade my whole life to avoid this pain. (Now, don't go thinking I'm suicidal. I'm not. It's just that if I'd never existed I'd never have known how this felt) This is crushing me. I can't breathe. I cry several times a day. I'm pissed off at the world. I don't know how to handle this. I will never be the same. 

[princess1973]

Aug. 1, 2010 at 12:41 AM

I'm sorry you are going through a pain that no mother should ever experience...I can relate to your pain...June 28, 2010 I delivered my still born daughter at 39 weeks and 3 days....