depressed

[ilovematteo170]

this has been the longest summer of my entire life.  Everything has gone wrong.  Central Air went out, fridge went out, van is no longer is commission, kids are bored, and hubby stared school, so he is never here.  With no car to take the kids anywhere and no money to do anything the days have dragged on and on and on and on and on. I have let so much go with the house b/c all I want to do is sleep or sit on my butt and feel sorry for myself.  I dont know how to pull myself out of this.  I was praying alot but found myself losing faith. I dont like this feeling either.  I am angry and can go from 0 to bitch in like 1.2 seconds.  My kids are not willing to help with anything, they are not listening. I feel like I am yelling all the time. Having fights with hubby all the time. Everyone here is miserable and it sucks.  Right now I see no light at the end of the tunnel. I am angry at my father and my inlaws. They seem to put all other grandchildren ahead of mine.  I dont think that my dad and inlaws understand that my kids are bored and just want to come over there to get out of the house.  I have 5 kids and one has special needs.  I feel bad for them that we have really not been able to do anything and they cant see their friends.(long story, we moved and there are no kids where we live)

I know others have it worse and I should be more grateful but at this point I am not seeing it that way.(believe me, I know I should)

this to shall pass but I thought I might feel better getting it out.  trying to get some positive thoughts but they are not coming as of today.  I will keep trying for my family.

thanks for reading and please keep my family in your prayers, send good vibes, positive thoughts!!   It would be helpful and appreciated!!!

[AidenDsmommy]

Aug. 8, 2010 at 12:47 PM

i know it seems hard sometimes, days when i feel down i literaly get down in the floor and play with aiden all day, we make forts out of sheets, make mask with paper he loves it an i love his smiles everything else seems to fall in place

[PresidentCross]

Aug. 8, 2010 at 2:04 PM

Awww T, I am so sorry.  The way you're feeling is normal though and you shouldn't beat yourself up for feeling that way.  When I'm down and out like that I just say "I'm stuck in a rut!"  You're right, it will pass.  Things will look up.  Summer is rough.  It's rough on mom and the kids.  I have trouble keeping my 3 entertained.  I will keep you in prayer.  And here's some    ~~~~~good vibes~~~~~    and    >>>>>positive thoughts<<<<<     big (((HUGS))) sweetie!

[Apple1]

Aug. 8, 2010 at 3:53 PM

I know how you feel, I feel the same way a lot of days with the mess we are in with Owen...I'm so sorry you are having a rough summer!  But, you are right, this will pass and things will get better, take things one day at a time, this is what I tell myself too, one day at a time.  I wish I lived closer to you, we could hang out together!  I'm sending you lots and lots of hugs momma!  It will get better, keep your chin up.

[ilovematteo170]

Aug. 8, 2010 at 6:23 PM

thanks ladies, as always, you make my days earlier.  I am so thankful for you!!  xoxoxox

(Original Poster)

[Lb128f]

Aug. 8, 2010 at 11:35 PM

I'll be saying a prayer for you!

[theoven]

Aug. 9, 2010 at 2:46 PM

Sometimes life throws us to many lemons. I feel your pain hun. Keep praying don't give up on whatever your faith is =D Smile you will feel better, its rather contagious if ya look around =D

[thelilone]

Aug. 9, 2010 at 5:09 PM

Feel better!

[MamaT.]

Aug. 9, 2010 at 9:34 PM

I'm praying. I thank God for seasons. Just get prepared for the next one. Live your life like you've got something special ahead of you. I'm preaching to myself as well as I'm going through tuff times

[ilovematteo170]

Aug. 9, 2010 at 9:41 PM

thank you all for the support!!!! you guys made me feel so much better. I am praying for better days.

(Original Poster)