Fallin Apart

[singingoutloud]

The older I get the more I seem to fall apart.  Recently I was told I have a spot on my eye.  I still havent rescheduled that doctor visit. I got upset after they didnt give me everything for new contacts, I burnt my eye and then I had to pay for a visit.  Luckily, they have credited me for that after I called to complain.  I should've made a fuss in the first place, but I was too mad and it would've just meant tears.  

I've always had menstral issues, but  I've had certain problems for almost 2 years now too.  When I call to ask a question, I have to be seen.  *ugh*  An gyn visit.  What a treat, and something to look forward to.  (sarcasm at full volume)  Last time they said, track your cycle.  Ooohhh, fun.  So I did and nothing's changed, except now I have more issues.  WebMD scares me about what it could be, so I quit looking at it.  Now I have 2 doctor appointments to make and not looking forward to either of them.

I dont normally compalin on here about this stuff.  But I've decided for multiple reasons that it's not any more heatlhy for me to tell family memebers than it is to type it out here, or to keep it in.  Some of my family scares me more than WebMD.  The rest dont know what to tell me, so they dont react, say much, shrug their shoulders and tell me to see what the doctor says. (You can probably guess who is who.) 

Predictions: My eyeball will probably end up being a floater, like they thought in the first place.  My gyn will say its age and use some KY and I still need a mamogram.  Wish me luck!

So the eye dr said that the thing on my eye has gotten a bit smaller.  It;s not gone.  She said if it comes back and gets worse than it was, I could have a retinal tear.  Apparently nothing to be worried about and my eye should heal itself afterwards.  Interestingly, the day before the appt I had 2 voicemails from their office. #1) Dont come in because it's not covered by insurance. 2.) Sorry, our error.  You will be covered as this is a follow up and not a regular eye exam.  Not out of the ordinary after what happened before.  They did ask if I wanted to still do contact!?  I declined.  Tomorrow is the ob-gyn.  I hope I dont get my period before I go.  That would be just my luck.

I got a suprised disgusted look from the dr when I told her I didnt get the mamogram done several years ago.  Otherwise no real news yet from dr until test comes back.  And the wait begins.....