Military Wife

[tool_mommy]

After 6 years of keeping my loving husband out of the military and here with family, I've finally decided to support him. It's really got me down, and the more I think about him joining, the worse I feel, and the harder it is to accept. He's always talked about joining, and I think always for the wrong reason. He's always said, "We'll always be taken care of and won't have to worry about money." And I've always told him that money means nothing if you don't have your family. And I think I've caved for the wrong reason. We're struggling with money, Hubby being unemployed, and myself unemployed, behind on rent and other bills. It's the only thing I know for sure that will support us and I won't have to stress about whether or not we'll have our house tomorrow, or if we'll have the money for diapers. And me being the impulse buyer that I am, if we don't need diapers and such, the little money we have goes to things we don't need. Of course I feel bad for it, but that's just me, always has been and probably always will be, and I just can't help it. Although mostly, the money goes to things for the kids. Rarely do I spend the money on things for myself. But regardless, I've caved and told Hubby I would support him 100%. I'm not prepared for what's to come. I have such a hard time being away from him for just a day, it's going to be even harder being away from him for 10 weeks while he's in basic. So the war in Iraq is over, a couple of our friends have went to Spain, and Germany. But there's still the possibility that he'll be shipped off somewhere that we won't be able to go. I guess you could call me codependent, but if it were any other guy, I wouldn't be worried about it. I'd just go on about my days like nothing were different. But this is my husband, my soulmate, my other half, my best friend. The guy I've had by my side since I was 13. I don't know how I'm supposed to function without him, but I guess I have to learn to hold my head up high and be strong for the kids. I just hope that it will benefit us in the long run, and not hurt us. And hopefully it will help distance us from his family and take away tons of stress that they cause. And while I don't believe in God persay, I hope that whatever higher power will keep him safe from harm and always bring him home to us.   

[DuncansMommy]

Aug. 25, 2010 at 5:47 PM

I can't even imagine how hard it is for you to support him on this hun. I'm not sure I could my hubby. I have always had tons of respect for the women and families who live with it everyday. You have much more courage then I. I think it's great that you are supporting him and try to keep your head up, for some people it makes all the difference in their lives. I wish nothing but the best for you both and your family. You'll be in my thoughts and "prayers". xoxo

[Mrs.Killer09]

Sep. 1, 2010 at 10:04 PM

wow, that's pretty......wow. don't know what to say to that. i wish you nothing but the best and i hope everything works out for you guys. i know how hard it can be to struggle with money. know that you have tons of people who love you and who will support you through this troubling time.  i know for one, that i am definitely here for you. i will do whatever is in my power to help you through this. it is a life changing thing, but maybe this is what Scott's ment for, maybe this IS what's best for your family. it won't be easy, but i KNOW  you will be just fine, honey. *HUGS*

much love,

Rebekah