Waiting- Waiting - Waiting!!

[tts]

Sometimes is the hardest thing to do...

I recently found out on Aug. 2nd 2010 after a loss last winter that I'm expecting once again!  I couldn't be any happier- another chance - a true blessing!  Things were starting out slowly, as I was feeling great.   This had me a little concerned.  My midwife wanted to do some early u/s and hormone checks to be sure everything was on track, and to give me a little piece of mind. 

On Monday, Aug.16th at 6 weeks pregnant, my hcg levels were checked at came back at 2,600.  On Wed., 48 hrs later, they were at 4,000.  Not quite doubled, but still a nice rise.  

On Thursday, August 19th I was scheduled for my first U/S.  I was 6 weeks 3 days, and hoping we would see a baby with a heartbeat at this point.  Unfortunately, we were only able to see  a sac measuring 5 weeks.

I decided to wait 11 more days for a follow-up U/S to be sure to see my baby & a heartbeat.  So at 8 weeks, on Monday, Aug. 30th I went in for my U/S.   The results not what I expected.. still only a yolk sac, which had grown slightly in 11 days to 5 weeks 5 days.  Still no baby.. no heartbeat.  I left completely devastated.  Later in the day, the doctor I spoke with suggested coming in again for another hcg check.  My levels were now at 16,000.  

I have decided to wait on this baby.. I don't believe this is over yet.. and I believe God will give life to my little one.  BUT it is so hard to be patient, and feels like a lifetime of waiting...  Trying to stay strong day in and day out.. as I continue on with my life.. not knowing how things are going... not sure if baby is continuing to grow...  I've decided against doing any more early testing.  It has done nothing but give me unnecessary worry.  I'm ready to be strong and wait this out...I refuse to give up.. has anyone ever been in the place I'm in & gone on to have a healthy baby??

Please pray for my little one- my true blessing..

Thank you!

[CrazedMomof2]

Sep. 2, 2010 at 12:01 PM

Hugs.

[jennbenn5]

Sep. 2, 2010 at 12:25 PM

http://www.misdiagnosedmiscarriage.com/  I ment to send this to you yesterday.  Some real stories of hope.  Blighted Ovums are ofter misdiagnosed.   My heart breaks when i think about the fact that I jumped into inducing my m/c last december after the diagnosis.  I wished I had read all of this that morning before I started the cytotec, maybe I would have my baby now. 

I'm praying for you guys.  God will give strength.

XOXO
Jenn

[turtle07]

Sep. 2, 2010 at 1:50 PM

praying for you