Been awhile... again

[sweetiowamommy]

Times a changin in my life lol. EVERYTHING is changing actually. We moved to another city. Its a big change for me to leave my home town. All my friends and family live there. But it was for my husband who found a better job. Well what we thought was a better job but that story is for another time. This time is yet again, you guessed it, about babies. Still nothing new to update on. Yeah. Still no baby. I was looking up on things but I'm starting to get that "down" point again. SO many of my friends and family just had or are having babies and its really bothering me. Because I know so many of them just do NOT deserve it. All I want is one more baby. For now anyway. That would make me happier then almost anything. Well some... strange things have been happening with my body lately and I'm not sure how to go about them. Its been nothing but nausea, heart burn, headaches, toothaches and acne for me for a couple weeks now. But I'm scared to by another test and it be point less. I'm scared to keep getting my hopes up just to have them torn back down. I just don't know what to do with my life anymore. I do all I can to fill my free time with my beautiful DD but there are times when I cant even do that. Nap time is the hardest time for me. DH at work and DD sleeping leaves me to my own thoughts. The most dangerous thing there is for me right now. DH is finally coming around and realizing how hard this is on me. And we are finally starting to work together to get this show on the road. He promised when he gets home tonight we will sit down and google every possible option we have to give ourselves the baby we know we deserve. Its just a matter of time before I finally get my BFP! Fingers crossed all day everyday!