I am 25 years old. Unfortunately I was born to a crazy women and a man who thinks his twenties never end. So frustrating! All I ever wanted was a mother and a father!
Imagine having parents like mine for a second. My mother went to the bar every weekend. Men in and out. You never knew when she would have one of her moments and go off. Happy one minute making you pay the next. Never once had a normal mother-daughter conversation. Never went with me to pick out a dress. Never once wanted to do anything with me. I always felt like a burden.
She did nothing my whole life but put me down and physically abuse me. I recenetly had to boot her out of my life due to her trying to hit me one day. I told her she needed help and until she does get help to forgot about me and my children.
Then there is my winner of a father. He never grew up. Still hasn't even at 40 years old. We have been trying to have a relationship for years. It has always been one sided. I give and give. He is in and out as he pleases . Lately it has been better but recently he also got a new girlfriend. I am just waiting til he stops contacting me again. Women, cars, and whatever else might be in his life is much more important than me. And people wonder why I have a hard time trusting people.
You see there is no way those people are my parents! I had to be switched at birth. My life is so much different then theirs. We do not even have anything in common. Well then again their was a paternity test done when I was 5. So maybe they are in fact my parents.
I still cannot help but to fantasize about being taken away to more supportive parents.
Oh well I guess all I can do is be the best mom I can be. Work hard on keeping my marriage intact. I will never ever allow my children to go through what I have. I cannot imagine why any mother or father would treat their own child this way. I guess it is what it is.
Thanks for letting me vent. Makes a hard situation bearable!