I was at the lab the other day getting my biometeric screening done when Avanelle looked at me and said " I want to be a big sister". My husband has been reading to her about being a big sister. Everyone in the waiting room seemed to turn and look at me. You know kids they cannot talk quietly they have to yell. I told her that she willl be someday. Then she told me how she wants a baby sister. I laughted so hard at her because she knows how much we want a baby brother. She said that to be rotten.
All of this got me thinking about pregnancy and what I miss about it. I mean it has been almost three years since I have been pregnant. If you by pass the first 20- 21 weeks when I have HG I would say I miss it.
I miss the feeling a baby move inside me. I miss feeling the hicups. I miss going to the doctor seeing the ultrasound for the first time. I missed out on some many things last time I was pregnant because I was so sick. I really hope if I get pregnant again that things will be different. I hate being bed ridden. I am glad we have a plan. I feel safe knowing that there are people on call to help take care of me and my kids. Baby dust to everyone that is trying like me. I hope it is not much longer.