life as i new it

[EmmaKerrimom]

I can't believe how quickly, completely, and wonderfully life has changed.  It had been just us for 5 years... and frankly I was giving up that it would be anyone but just us.  I mean really things weren't all that bad, nearly done with school, girls growing up before my eyes, and life living it's own rythm... but there was that piece missing.. a piece I couldn't do anything about... then he found me... and how amazing it has been.  The piece is filled.... it's not always been easy I am aware that I do not trust, at every turn I'm ready to bail and run screaming.... but he just hugs me and holds me tighter.  he's not pefect, I'm not perfect.... but together we fit.  I worry that I'll push him away... but it's the last thing i want to do.... I want forever with him... and the way he treats my girls is even more amazing... I've never had help with them and now I do!  The first thing he did was take us camping... then got us a puppy... now we've gone to a hunted house and gotten the girls a x-mas present I couldn't even dream of getting them... now we just have to keep it a secret.. not sure who's worse at it me or him... he took the girls to get me a present (they have never gotten me a store bought present before) and i'm not sure who it's killing worse not to tell me them or him lol.  Emma has asked him and I a dozen times when we are getting married lol.  I know my thoughts are scattered but it's because I've just never felt this way before.... not sure where the future will take us but i sure hope i'm ready for the ride.