I just found one of my old boyfriends on facebook.  I cannot express what I'm feeling right now.  Now, it was almost 20 years ago, and I haven't even seen him since 1994.  But seeing him again brought up a whole bunch of emotions, but not the one's that you might expect.  I don't carry a torch for him.  I'm no longer in love with him.  But he showed me love and respect.   I wouldn't know those things could exist for me if it wasn't for him.  I wouldn't have known that men like my husband were even out there if it were not for my time with him.

What I'm feeling is gratitude.  I am so thankful that he's still around, that he's okay.  But most of all?  I'm so thankful that I had the memory of my time with him to help carry me through some of the darkest hours of my life...my abusive first marriage.  I am thankful that I had a TASTE of what love could really be, and of what God had in store for me in the future.  I'm thankful that I was shown that good guys, good men, really do exist.

Thank you, Jason.  I'm glad that I got the chance to know you.

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Nov. 2, 2010 at 1:09 PM

WOW!!!  I had found mine too after 20 yrs on FB again.... but .... we reconnected and it is the most amazing journey. We have always had this bond, soulmates.  good luck to you.

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Nov. 2, 2010 at 1:31 PM

I had my first love try and connect with me but I am happily married and would never change that...Good Luck to you..

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Nov. 3, 2010 at 7:45 PM


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Nov. 3, 2010 at 10:03 PM

I also reconnected with an ex.  Unfortunately, it didn't turn out as nice as yours.  There is a reason why we split!

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